home sweet home

I'm back

I can say I had a very nice holiday, saw some wonderful sights, enjoyed some memorable bucket list experiences, drunk a lot of cheap booze and enjoyed it, but there were also things I didn't like.

I got a little ill the last days, part cold/flu, part food, the travel back was fucking awful and I will never fly Aeroflot again ever....

But also I can't see me going back to Thailand, its nice to see, but once seen, it pretty much wraps up any reasons to go there. It's very commercial, hard to find any authentic sense of Thailand, and it's very oppressive and the sleaze that everyone assumed I went there for is incredibly real, and very depressing and in no way appealing to me.

At times it was impossible to sit at a bar and drink without being hassled by hawkers or more often hookers. I know I'm a sexy maaaan, but I kinda don't need to hear it as I'm trying to have a quiet drink and being pawed at. I did find some quieter bars but even then the ladies would turn up at different times looking for customers.  I discovered it was best to hang out in bars where Aussie families hang out, for some reasons the Aussies have the family holiday part separated from the hoards of young men on brothel crawls. Sadly the family bars switch into hooker hang outs around 9 when the kids go back to the hotels/

Its actually rather depressing and sad to have such in your face approaches, it made me wonder why such a market exists, and the reasons is basically the tourists who go there to treat the place as a massive brothel.
The other thing that disturbed me was seeing so so so many old men, my age and older walking around town with young rent a brides hanging on to them. I took a long hard look in a mirror, and wondered how long will it be before I sink that low. Its really time to fix some aspects of my life before I slip into that kind of decline.


The country side is stunning, and the boat and jungle/forest trips I went on were wonderful. But now I've been there done that, I won't be back.

And I will NEVER fly Aeroflot again at least not via Moscow...did I mention that. I can't even write down how awful the customer service is..never ever again.


Back to work tomorrow. Can't wait.

Ahthankyew

ermm no its not a sex holiday

I'm really quite amazed that people are assuming that a singleton heading to Phuket for a week is there to work his way through the entire female and ladyboy population...... Everyone, I've told I'm going there on holiday has made that assumption?

At no point did it even enter my head.. I'm going for the warm weather (albeit possibly rainy), the beaches, the food, the boat trips, the excursions, the temples, the elephant and tiger sanctuaries  and the sex...no no, no, won't have time for the sex. There are 2 apparently well stocked brothels within 5 mins walk of my house if I wanted that and if that was the intent I think Bangkok would have been a better destination. But still a damn site more expensive that walking round the corner to Club Reaperbaan...

I really am just going to relax, get away from computers and students and book writing for 1 week in a 5 star hotel, have drinks on the terrace, swim in the eternity pool and laze in the on terrace Jacuzzi.  It cost much the same as a week in the Canaries so why not?
I had 0 summer holiday, cos I was way to busy coding and writing so this is my way to escape, doing something totally different before the next set of student assessment stress, then Xmas.

I am really really looking forward to it, I hope the rain isn't going to be too bad, but 25-30deg temps and being waited on hand and foot is going to be great.



Ahthankyew

JamHub is no more

Actually its been no more for a while, the company I mean, it went under Dec 2016. What a shame that such a clever innovative product did not make it.
I don't use it as much as I want to, since some bandmates for whatever reason are reluctant to use it, but in small sessions its wonderful and I find it a great tool. Though not that great for recording.

I needed to replace a couple of extension parts,  fortunately I found a source in NL/Bel that has them.. I better get a few, but I will just get the one I need and let the school buy the 2 it needs.


Ahthankyew

new vid

A few dead notes in the guitar, but we're still getting the hang of this number, Roos sings beautifully.

Ahthankyew

Holiday pick me up

In get a week off in October, and didn't really fancy staying in NL, so decided to head off for some sun, as I really didn't have much free time during the Summer, working on projects and the book.

But where can you go where its still warm? I like the Canaries a lot and always wanted go to Greece but Europe is chilling down now so it wouldn't be the best idea.

So I am going further afield and heading to Phuket in Thailand for a week, helluva long flight, via Moscow of all places, but its still very warm there in October, potentially a bit rainy but I booked flights and 5 star hotel for pretty much the same as it would cost me to go to the Canaries...so boom going for it.

Hoping I can get the last of my projects done and dusted beforehand
lol yeahh.hhh

Ahthankyew

New laptop

Got a new work laptop, its impressive a top end Alienware thing
horrible  keyboard though, smaller than my last one so I am hitting the capslock instead of the A key

Its going to take a few days/weeks to set it all up the way like it,  which is why I hate new laptops, I'm used to a particular  setup on my laptop, which will take a while to get done on this..b I have my old laptop for a week or 2 as I transition, so hopefully I can get all my tools transferred

oh well, its a lot more powerful, capable of running VR and Vulkan so it'll be useful for me to continue my learning on 3D and API's


Ahthankyew

huge come down

ok going to say it now, I'm feeling incredibly down, the end of the book has meant I've had a little bit of time to myself, and its kinda depressing that Im no further on in my life than I was 2 years ago.

Not going to go into details but it is getting to me.I was supposed to be at a concert tonight, but going alone didn't really appeal to  me so I gavce the tickets to friends. I've got another thing non Friday, going to see Ricky Gervais, that will be funny so I'm going to go, and take my friend Liz,   it will hopfully cheer me up, but I wish it could be someone I'm in relationship with...its just not happening..

Also the coding work I am doing is actually giving me a lot of stress, I managed to achieve some very major things in the last couple of days, getting graphics working across almost all linux targets and today working out the problem and a fix for the keys on linux

I was initially delighted at cracking these 2 tricky issues, but now I'm just feeling exhausted and down. If I keep working I'm distracted, if I stop, the shittiness of life kicks back....

guess I just have to keep busy.


ho hum....better not start singing sad songs on the guitar, I'll depress the neighbours



Ahthankyew

And now we're back, from outer space

I just walked in to ......

sorry, listening to disco music..

Back to work tomorrow, no students yet, we spend 2 weeks getting set up and ready for them but I think we're already pretty sure what we're going to be doing with them, barring a few minor changes.

Its been an interesting holiday, I worked the whole time, aside from a couple of, can't keep my eyes open I need to sleep, rest days and one poker night, I've been a busy camper.

At least we get a week off, 5 weeks into the block, I am going to try to escape to the Canaries for some sun and sand and escape from computers.. I'm sure something will screw up that plan.

Ahthankyew

missing bits replaced

Ok, missing bits have been replaced, still dunno where they went to but not to worry I was able to get them back in.

Sent off to the publishers again, now waiting for feedback, and also doing the website now..

Back to work on Monday...just as  I need a bloody holiday


Ahthankyew

Nearly normal services are resumed

Handed over to the publisher yesterday, an of coruse as soon as I sent it I found lots of things I ndeed to edit...but the book is content complete and all I am going ot do is fix, refine some parts...so no more late late nights.

and the Coleco game is starting to make sense again....

Im going to have a mega clean up to get ready for he life I'm about to reclaim.

oh hang on, I forgot something else :D


Ahthankyew

ohhhh...

yes a few small things got overlooked,  I'm working through them now...nothing mad though, its genuinely close.


Ahthankyew

....could it b?

No todo's to do, some tidy up's and checking but, no todo's to do.

not going to say it yet......but the end is basically......just over there past that big cock up you can't quite see around that corner, next to that thing you forgot behind that bit you did totally wrong.

Ahthankyew

Limping over the line

Still one final thing to do, explaining and reusing terrain collision meshes.....oh god its slow work....

Sadly my main model for the environment isn't especially good, creating more issues, But I have managed to get the main code in and running, I've got the screen shots and code snippets. I just have to fix or find the model that can provide the right visual cues to explain the points...and then its done.

Been working 20+ hour shifts for the last 4 or 5 days...on top of 14-16 hour shifts....I am close to dropping dead...but the thought of being done with everything is keeping me going.

hopefully my next post will be...its done!! praise bejeebuzz.

watch this space.


Ahthankyew

Noooooo

I had a relatively painless experience installing Bullet Physics, the test systems worked ok, I put my cars in and they fell and bounced, but rotated 90degs...no problem things I...

I'll rotate them back....only for the physics to stop phyucking working.

Oh and trying to add the debug draw.....bastard system....

BastardBastardBastardBastardBastardBastardBastardBastardBastardBastardBastardBastardBastardBastardBastardBastardBastardBastard

an time for a nice cool bottle of supermarket piss weak cider, then back to work.

Ahthankyew

7 todo's to do

thats 7 things I noted in the book I needed to review, add to, or provide code for...hoping to get 2 more done to day and the final 5 over the weekend.............then.....I dunno

maybe have a life or something?

Ahthankyew

arrghhhh

A week gone, still not done....lots finished and some good new stuff added but still not done.


so so so fucking hard to finish


Ahthankyew

Holidays???

Desperatly trying to maximise my time to finish off the book and coleco projects, so even though the holidays started on Thursday more or less worked constantly since, aside from a night out with my good friend Ed. I have a day out today as well which hopefully will end in a good poker profit, but even if not it will be a fun day.
Then back to it...No  messing, just working non stop till they are done. Nocternal living here I come.

there's not much else going on, I will report any interesting stuff if and when it happens.




Ahthankyew

Phew mad rush

Been mega busy, at work and at play, the Annual Sebeliouslaan double graduation gigs went quite well in spite of our slightly improvisational nature of our replacement lead singer. The extra rehearsals were well worth it.

I was much less happy with my gig at Belcrum Beach thugh accompanying Roos and her friend Ed from another Band (not our Ed, though both play bass funnily enough)  I had to play some melody lines on a song she was singing and Ed was playing the main chords, but I simply could not hear the guitar through the monitor and the engineer was not at the desk...I made so many errors I could see people cringe... I slightly redeemed myself by playing SOS for Roos, since I can do that with with my eyes and ears closed but I felt terrible at being so bad.

Anyway, that was just the personal life, work wise, graduates are graduated, interns are interned and students are all graded and most of them can move on to 2nd year and have some fun. Its been a good crop this year I feel back for the couple who didn't make it but I'm hoping they keep up the work and maybe they will get where they want to be.

Its back to book work, which in spite of all the other work I've managed to squeeze in quite a lot of ...but now the Publisher wants it done.. I have to just work full time flat out and get it to them.


Ahthankyew

The site is up!

Well its up, but its not got all the content in there yet

Take a look at it here its still mostly a holding page and due to my lack of expertise with Dreamweaver, the design package I am using, its pretty generic, but I'll tinker with it and start adding pages and content to it as I go.

I've got to offload a lot of the book code sections to that, to keep the page count down so it will start to grow.

Had a lot of fun yesterday adding the light based shaders to the 3D games, so nice to see them becoming much more realistic. Per vertex lights work great, per pixels too but what a performance drop in them.
I won't be doing per pixel lighting in the actual book demos, it will just cause things to really chug,  so its going to stay on the site as an example of what is possible rather than what you should do.

Back to work progress is really good again and I want to make the biggest dent possible in the todo list this weekend to try to get it to the publisher .

The book has been pushed back to Q1 2018, which is a shame, but I am not going to assume any more time I must finish this in the next couple of days so I can get my life back together and move on with other things that have been stacking up.

Ahthankyew

Slowly readching the end.

Incredible, I mean really incredibly, the progress has been so painfully slow, but I can see the last few bits to do, the only  problem is that for the last 2 -3 weeks every single thing I've tried to do has not worked, 5 minute tasks inexplicably take 5 hours, small errors get magnified, and for no reasons I can see, things that should work fine and do on a PC test case, don't work on the Raspberry.

Im sure much of this is just due to total code exhaustion, there's so much code in this book and the support site and trying to keep it all in a consistant style while allowing it to evolve is a mental task I don't think I've ever had to deal with on an individual project

But in spite of all this incredibly hassle, I'm limping to the finish line..... I just fucking hope that last day or 2's work does not take a month or 2




Ahthankyew

Nose almost worn down

Its been stuck at the grindstone for too long

I  am genuinely exhausted, not getting to bed till 2/3 am and having to get up for work at 8 at least twice a week, (lucky the other days Im not so fixed on my start time)

I know Im making progress but it just never seems to end, small 10 min jobs inexplicably bring some hiccup that takes 10 hours, sucking both time and life out of me.

the todo list is shrinking at an impressive rate, but some of the code still refuses to play nice...

I'm going to try to kill it this weekend....try....assuming nothing else takes 10 hours.

I never in my wildest dreams, after 70+ game projects thought writing a book would be harder.....it is.


Ahthankyew

arghhh

slow progress on the code, fixed a lot of the issues but slooooooowwwww


getting very wound up

Ahthankyew

Horrible times

Less than 2 weeks ago, I was in the UK, staying for a while in Southwark, right next to London Bridge,  and visited and ate in the Borough Market, walked over London Bridge, like so many other tourists.
I went to Manchester, to Victoria Station to change trams to get to Rochdale.

Hearing about the bombs in Manchester happening as I was passing through, and last night the terror attacks in London, on the streets I walked through and sat and ate, it makes you pause...anyone can be a victim of these nutters. Even safe and sound back in NL I'm troubled that no one is ever safe from madmen who want to harm you, its only accidents of timing and location that keep you safe.

Horrible times we live in, I doubt I'll live to see the end of these kinds of acts of violence justified by twisted religious morality.  We need to make the right start for future generations and take away the immoral justifications, starting with religion. Why do we still make excuses for it? It is without question the greatest evil humanity has ever produced.

Its not that I'm against Islam, Judaism, Christianity, Hinduism, or any of the countless other beliefs and their practitioners, I recognize the supposed need and real comfort they give people, but they are fictions, being used as facts. Its delusion on a unimaginable scale.
If we stopped presenting them as facts to our children and let them question and refuse religion, we'd end so much of the hate that is used to divide us. It might take a couple of generations but getting people to stop brainwashing kids to believe that an invisible  sky fairy is looking after us and only us because we live the right way, is one thing we can do to make a better world.

Teach our children that they are responsible for all the worlds good and evil things and pretty soon they will want to make things better, not transform it into their idea of heaven on earth. Morality isn't religion's gift, its humanity's.

There is no afterlife, there are no rewards or punishments for the life you lead, there are no gods....lets just make the world better for us and our children and enjoy your time.




Ahthankyew

I am home

And so is Harvey.

life is back to semi normal.


Ahthankyew

Record Time

Passport is here, so happy, as much as I love spending time on Danni's couch listening to Harvey2's babbling, I need ot get home...flights changed, heading home tomorrow



Ahthankyew

This is rather nice...might do it again

One of the nice things about my cheap 1st class ticket, cos I booked in advance, is that I get to use the 1st class lounge at Euston.
Its a little busy at the moment, but free coffee, biccies and a small desk space to set up the laptop and charge phone etc...rather pleasent.

I must say I have always refused to use 1st class even if only a few quid more but in future I'm going to grab it with both hands, this is so much less stress than standing in the main hall of Euston smelling Burger King and staring blankly at a screen waiting for an update every 10 mins..

Heading up to Manchester to stay with sprog and await my passport. Left my nice AirBnB room this mornng all tidy, but of course I had to cock up and left my keys and dutch travel card in the desk drawer which  luckily I  noticed when I got to the tube station but before I got on the train...a few calls and a mini cab back to the place where I was able to get the friendly neighbour with the key to let me back in and collect my things.

I had to take the cab because quite frankly the hills up and down from the station to the house almost killed me. 9 years in the Netherlands has totally ruined my once fine athleltic physique...cough

nah its not funny I was totally puggled walking up a hill....it was a steep one but still, puggled is not good....I must do something about my weight and general state of fitness.... I  keep saying this I know, but fuuuck....when walking up a hill is too  much  effort I need to do something.

Book remains in 99% but can't do that last 1% limbo, was working all the time I was in the BnB till the small hours, only popping out to eat, but lack of notes makes it impossible to finish. The new model I was using for the race track demo also turned out to have a few issues. Nothing I couldn't fix but it just drained time and  still isn't quite right. Hoping I have space on the train to get it up and running and move on to the final open envirionment game

Better sign off here and use the hour I have to wait to  update the chapter on the issues with the model and see if the error I had is something obvious that I can fix without a Pi attached.




Ahthankyew

a First class wait

Well the AirBnB is really quite nice, its like being a lodger in someones house, though I've not seen much of them, we chat when I go downstairs for coffee.
I'm madly trying to edit my book, without the benefit of my own library for checking things, especially maths. Making a lot of things much harder.

Lucky for me I brought a raspberry and screen with me, its a bit small, but it at least lets me test out some of my code, not all though which is a concern and I still need too try to deliver on Monday.

I've no chance, a lot of my notes and content are on my main PC at home, ....home :(

I've let the publisher know my prediciment, Im sure he's sympathetic, but really just wants the manuscript, so I've worked as much as I can on my laptop, sat on a deck chair in my bedroom. Getting the spelling and content all ready.. I think that we're there.. If I can't actually do the coding, at least I can do the editing, its 840 pages, 40+ more than they want but they can change the text size if its too much for them.

Tomorrow I head up to Manchester for the week to spend with my daughter and grandson, not sure how much work I'll get done up there, I know she has no wifi but I can use my phone if I am not too reckless with bandwidth.
Since I was able to book in advance I have a 1st class ticket, never done that before, but its more to make sure I have a table and power socket to work on the 2+ hour trip.

As much as I am looking forward to seeing Danni, I really wish I could get home and finish my damn fucking book as well as the Colecovision work I have to nail now that I have invested in some proper equipment.

I've got a plane booked on the 29th, onthe presumption the passport will come on the 26/27th.... I just hope I didn't misspell some twatting thing.


Ahthankyew

London... a new kind of hell

I've lost my passport, no idea how, where, thiough fair idea of when, but lost or stolen I am currently without it...

Thats a pain in ways you can't imagine, since as a UK citizen, currently in the UK, I have no means of getting hold of emergency travel documents...nor can I apply for the 1 day priority passport, I can only apply for a renewal and that will take 7-8 days

oh shit......and I check out of the hotel later today...

I have a plan, I'm tryng to get an Air B&B for a few days, then head up to Danni's for a few more days, where I can have the passport sent, assuming they will send it there since I am actually not registered at any address in the UK...this is going to be such fun..

I need to get a passport applicaiton from the Post office, this morning, train to Tunbridge Wells to get a friend who is a company director to countersign that he knows me, back to London Passport office to make the application then hope that all goes well..

Currently having trouble getting Air B&B to accept my drivers license as ID....oh joy

And all through this I need to finish my book....


fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck and another fuck....


Ahthankyew

Grading over, back to mad work

Nice to get the grading down, it was kinda nice to not be writing as much while I was doing that, but time get back to mad hours and finish this damn book, only 1 thing to finish up and then I ncan hand it over finally

just hope I don't have any last minute bugs to clear up.



Ahthankyew

Super human effort, but missed again

I think I have 3 or 4 days work left to finish the book, but I am utterly dead on my feet, and that means I missed my deadline...maybe my final one, I don't know.

I got it down to 830pages too, so close..but there are 2 projects still needing written up, one has had some issues, that I haven't totally solved but will get a bit of help from my collegues to push past, am sure I'm just making a silly error.

I am hoping, that with so much done and so close to the wire that it won't get canned...I can't see it, there's just so much here...but I need to spend a few days on school work.

I'll send what I have tomorrow and let them decided what to do next, I am sure they've had this before, its not as if I'm skiving off the work, its just that coding and writing coherently about coding is bloody hard work!


Ahthankyew

and moving to new shooters

Again an extension of the scrolling platform game, the skramble game is more or less complete...this is the last of the software rendered sprite games, this is now being converted into a hardware sprite based mega shooter, with particles and so on, should only be another days work on that then I can move fullto to polishing the 3d.

Ironiocally the 3D stuff is far easier to do, and hopefully will only take a few days so I can make my deadline, and have an early night.

Ahthankyew

to sleep perchance to dream

Massive massive amounts of work done this week and last, but this week in particular, huge amount of writing and coding, but still not able to nail the coffin lid down on 2 projects...but the big project, the book, has been given another small extentions, so tonight I don't see the need to work til 4/5am though I probably will

Got a nice long weekend to come up now for Easter, thank you jeebuz.. and hopefully I can finally finish the Coleco game and complete the last 3 projects on the book. they have all been written and work fine, but I need to condense the descriptions into 1 section. I compressed 3 2d examples into one and it saves a load of pages, though it did take a while to code..

Anway....aside from a trip to Amsterdam tomorrow, I don' t need to set any alarms when I finally collapse in bed.



Ahthankyew

abra cadburys

Been working on converting a single screen plaforrm game

into a multi screen scrolling game...these were originally 2 separate projects but space has become critical in the book so I needed to put the two projects together and show how to turn the 1st into the 2nd with the aid of a couple of simple concepts.

Saved quite a few pages and I think it makes the experience a lot more fun.

Ahthankyew

no Brian 4 hours is not a nap

so the cycles of 20 hours work, 6-8 hours sleep and yesterdays 4 hours to come back to nomral time for work purposes, had me crashing to noddy land with a bang.

I did a huge amount of work today, but felt myself running out of steam around dinner time, and realised I was about to fall asleep whether I wanted to or not.

anyway yes I dropped right off, and sleep through the 1 hour timer I se up and 4 hours later I'm up.

so yes, back to work, and probably end up back in bed for 8am, just in time to get to work at 10 ish


silly sleep/work cycle Im faaaar too old for this shit.



Ahthankyew

Just like busses

So after spending over a grand on dental treatment with as it turned out, 250 euros worth of cover, you'd think my troubles would be over.

nope...new toothache on the other side of my mouth....wonderful. I can't really afford to do anything about it as I have shed loads of other things to pay for at the moment, going to have to wait till we get our May bonus to sort it...

I wonder whats next on the horizon to drain my already strained wallet?

Better go buy a months worth of ramen noodles from the local Asian supermarket, that's 5euros I wanted to save!!!

Ahthankyew

Just keep coding, just keep coding

And take the odd break now and again to post nonsense on here while I try to remember if I already explained virtual functions in a previous chapter, oh  I did, ok better move that part.

I'm very tired, trying to work round the clock, only stopping to eat and drink, and then sleep.
its working out at 20hours or so work, 6-8 hours sleep, so I am rotating through nocturnal and diurnal (I looked that up), Progress is good though, but not sure its good enough. Still got a couple of big bits of code to write up, and the page count is not dropping much.

I did get it down as low as 850, but now I'm doing the bigger 3D games which need a lot of chatter to explain its crept back to 900+.. I've chopped things I don't really need to talk about too but so far its all still quite a lot of words..

who's idea was it to write a book!!!

oh shit yeah!



Ahthankyew

Oh fuck me....I thought I was good at this shit.

20 hours, 20 bloody hours hunting for a strange weird bug, 20 hours, no matter what I did I could not find it, I was certain I'd put the right things in the right order, and comparing them with another project doing more or less the same thing.... it should have worked...it didn't

in the end it was a typo, noting major but it stopped all my rendering from working..
see if you can spot it.

    dst_rect.x = 16;
    dst_rect.y = 16;
    dst_rect.width = p_state->width;
    dst_rect.height = p_state->height;

    src_rect.x = 16;
    src_rect.y = 16;
    src_rect.width = p_state->width << 16;
    src_rect.height = p_state->height << !6;      

    dispman_display = vc_dispmanx_display_open(0);
    dispman_update = vc_dispmanx_update_start(0);


yup.....I'm well pissed off.

Ahthankyew

Renouncing my British citizenship, step 1

Well, today's the day, the Letter has arrived and the UK has pushed a self destruct button it can't unpush.

I am too depressed to even comment, I'm going to withdraw from political debate now. I no longer consider myself a Brtish citizen, even though I'm hesitating on pulling the Dutch trigger, I will start the move to regain my European citizenship as soon as I can, I feel its time to leave the UK behind me and let it get on with its self immolation

a sad sad day indeed.

Ahthankyew

Oh dear....I have how much insurance?

Not as much as I thought...I honestly thought I had 1000 euro cover....dunno why I had that number in my head but that's what I thought I had... Its a shame I thought that, because if I had thought a much lower number I don't think I would have asked for such expensive treatments and would not have to worry about paying out a lot of dental bills.

Yup, I had 250 cover...and the bills are already up in the 800+ with at least another 150 to go.

g'damn

Can't upgrade it till 1st Jan 2018 either so nothing I can really do but take the hit, get the teeth fixed and limp on till payday a whole month away.

Anyone have some nice noodle recipes?

I can cover it, though I have some heavy expenses this month to deal with too, fortunately I have been saving up the pennies and can take some of the hit on the chin. But economy drive has to kick in, no more Grand Cru Champagne and 1000 euro a night hookers for me.. back to cider and grab a granny nights

Good job the freezer is full of food cooked and uncooked, and I have arranged to work from home for the next week or 2 to finish the book, this means I won't be spending money on bad sausage rolls in the canteen though I might have to stock up on coffee.

Damn dentistry is expensive.

Never mind, back to the book, I'm in a final fix up and edit phase, as well as a couple of projects needing polish ready to go onto a support site I still have to get up and running....hmmm better get off here and back to it.




Ahthankyew

Dentists are not fun

So back to the dentist to get the root canal filled, fortunatly no more pain, and not even a jab this time the root was finally dead. The process was for more methodical and time consuming than I remember from my 2 previous root canals, lots more equipment involved for a start, and I know that becuase ever single piece of it was listed in my bill.

520 euros........and thats not counting the 200 odd from last month.

sheez thankfully I have insurance, and managed to work out how to get them to pay up, or at least  how to send it to them, I  am now awaiting them paying up. but seriously, 2.5 hours work in total, does not come to 700+ euros, I mean really.





Ahthankyew

Not so bad.

Phew, the cough has not taken major hold, I stayed off work for a couple of days, and slept as much as possible, docs wern't much good I will never understand this lack of AB's to patients, but I  suppose its fair that by the time I went I was indeed on the mend.

I have been doing masses of technical work on the book projects, lighitng is something I've never really done at a low level, so its been quite fun to re-connect with all that old theory I kinda knew, and now have reworked in my head. The Pi is surprising me every day with what it can, and of course what it cannot do.

Still got a lot of coding to do though and am working flat out to get it up and running and documented in the book.

The publishers extra time is taking a bit of pressure off me, but I still worry about the page count, its going to be massive before I can do the big edit.

I also have to be careful I dont' turn nocternal, I do soooooo much more work in the evenings, which quickly turns into the late nights, then early hours, then mornings..Going to bed at 9am is not a good plan when I have to be back to work tomorrow.....

I'll get some rum, that'll cure it.


Ahthankyew

I must be the unhealthiest man in Europe

A minor cold...not even a flu, certainly not manflu, it barely even gave me a runny nose and aside from a sexy croak to the voice it didn't bother me at all. I manly ignored it an carried on with my daily grind.

Of course now its ending, its big brother the chest infection has come along...with all the full might and fury of the last chest infection I had. 3 days so far of coughing getting worse and worse each evening...this evening being especially unpleasant.

WTF! how come I keep getting these...I've had to cancel a lecture tomorrow, no way I'd get through it as the sexy voice is now breaking up and the cough is pretty much constant.

I'm going straight to the docs this time though, there is no way I'm going through another 6 weeks of this crap.

He's giving me AB's and thats the end of the debate.


Ahthankyew

Strange work habits

Im not and never have been someone who adheres to a normal work/life/sleep balance. I have always enjoyed working at night, I seem to have a lot more focus and intent when working in the small hours.
Of course the side effet is that after a few days of such efforts I turn nocturnal, Though there are some strange exceptions like now.. I worked late the other day/night, but had to get up while still am,  and the result was I was knackered all next day, and succumbed to an early night last  night at 9-30. only to wake up around 10 and then not get back to sleep...So I basically snoozed for 30 mins despite beign drop dead exhusted enough to go to bed so early.

After atempting to drop off by watching some TV I eventually realised I was awake and time to get up. I did a mass of great work, went to bed aroudn 5...work up at 9

wtf!!!

need to have a power nap now.



Ahthankyew

Toothache still there...

So after the root canal work nearly 2 weeks ago, I am still in pain, clearly the nerve is still active..so will have to call and get a rapid appointment for more fun torture in the chair...not something I ever want to have to do again.

Its carnival time too, so not even sure the dentist will be around to do anything.

grrrr this is genuinely annoying, my worst dentist expereince just keeps getting worse.


Also my head is exploding with work, been finishing up the book with some of the more intricate and fun parts of programming,  which has meant pushing my knowledge of things I don't normally spend a lot of time with, such as model loaders and fancy lighting systems.

In one sense its fun, I am fully aware of the theory and practice of lights and shadows in a rendering system, but its not actually all that often that I have to code it, most of the time I'm using libs or firmware that really smart people write,  and this indeed is the 1st time I've had to code it on a raspberry in OGLES2.0. With interesting levels of success.

The much much slower hardware than I am used to has forced me to look for simple and clever systems to do what a PC/PS4 does with no effort at all and considerably complexity.

But as hard as it is, its actually great fun, there's no real challenge sometimes in coding a PS4, or even a Wii,U, the hardware can more than cope with my bad shader design. With the Pi, any shader with more than 10 lines in it is going to struggle. Its quite fun really, more like the old days when eeking out ever cycle mattered.

I'll post a few pics soon, of a fully lit scene with lights and animated models, I have all the separate parts working...getting them all working together though is the challenge.






Ahthankyew

Carnival, no thanks!

The southern parts of NL are currently in the grip of fancy dress salesmen and oompa music musicians, Its the closest thing to hell on earth I can imagine.

Yes Carnival is here, but I'm not getting involved, I've done it a couple of times but I guess I'm just not that into getting drunk until you fall over then get carried home by strangers and taken advantage of.

The Dutch can have their fun, as much as I want to be Dutch this is one thing I can do without, well two if you count the never ending obsession with sandwiches.

I shall be staying at home, working on my book and other projects, maybe even taking a trip to Ikea.....I need to add a couple of layers to my book case.

After losing all my writing momentum when I was ill, I seem to be back in full flow, got lots done the last couple of weeks and been starting to write it all down. Its been nice to finally see some animated models on my Pi. Next up is shadows....wish me luck :D

Not going to make my end of Feb deadline, but if I can keep up this pace I won't be far away from it.

The book is going to be finished in the next couple of weeks, or I will........there's a worrying thought.

off to bed now, as I contemplate how to optimize my frame rates...programmers..we never stop thinking about our frame rates.




Ahthankyew

tooth no hurty now

well still a tiny niggle but I just ate a small pack of pringles with no issue, 1st "crunchy" food I've had in day. I've been sucking down pasta the last few days, so its nice to be able to bite.

looks like things will be back to normal, aside from the wobbly front tooth I have to stimulate the gum around....
Can' wait to eat a proper meal tomorro



Ahthankyew

That is an inhuman level of pain

I''ve been in the dentist chair many times, had several fillings, a couple of root canals, and some incredible agony from the evil hygenists of the world

But today, I had the worst experience ever ever ever in a dentist chair, root canal work, 1st dose of local froze the gum, but I felt the drill, and boy did I fell it when it went to the nerve...cue dentist decision to inject the nerve itslef.

ermm I can honestly say that was the worst suggestion ever, don't ever let a dentist do that to you, she only got ot touch the nerve and I was screaming pain. so more local, and 2nd attempt...same result

4 injections of local in total and a decision to wait 20 mins...and finally it was done...

So I don't undertand what kind of weak assed shit local she was using but clearly it was not enough..


In all those times in the dentist chair I've never really experience pain....

To think some torture techniques are based on this....I'll admit to anything under that and I only managed to take about 4 bursts of less than a second...

Incredible, I was sweating and shaking in teh waiting room...scared to go back in.


Currently now avoiding biting down but that will settle in a day or 2, thankfully I have some good painkillers here....and booze...booze and painkillers for the pain...the booze.....medicinal.


Ahthankyew

Cosy buttocks

Really liking my new chair, still not quite got the grooves of my butt cheeks molded in, that'll take a year or 2 but its nice for now.

Been incredibly busy both at work and at ...errm work, of the book type.  Getting a new project set up for students to work on the Raspberry Pi, has been incredibly fun, though not had massive time to really get into it and have misjudged the availabilty of some models I want them to use. But they will hopefully have a fun 1st week getting a few cubes and a model up and running on the 50machines I persuade the school to buy (I must remember to buy shares!!)
They are excited about it too, so this will be fun to see how well they progress.

I'm not using much of the book code for this, aside from a simple framework I've cut down from my cubes demo, so they will hopefully manage to get things worked out themselves and I can observe what they get stuck on and maybe change a few things.

I'm almost certain a few of them will surprise me with something incredibly clever and insightful into getting even more out of the Pi, I'll surely learn from them as much as they will learn a bit from me.

Personal life is looking up, I am talking to someone nice, again online, I did get bitten a bit with the last one I met in November, but you don't get anywhere if you don't try. And dating in real life is just not too practical at the moment. I am hopeful though that this lovely lady is going to  restore my faith in people. We're going to arrange to meet soon and see where it goes.

Harvey is getting quite deaf I've noticed, he's not waking up the minute I walk in now, and if he wanders too far from me on his walks he does not respond, coupled with his failing eyesight, he's turning into a rather lovely old man, still thinks hes a puppy, but he is avoiding going upstairs now, since he tends to fall down :D.

I also lost a filling before Christmas, and becuase of the illness and then the pressure of catching up, I left the dentist a little too late....finally got to see them, and, sigh,  root canal is booked for March 16...gulp, also had the usual experience with the dental hygenist, better known as Vlad the Gum impaler....as I have a very loose incisor, which I now have to ensure horrible extensive clearning in  the hope the gum can be stimulated to regrow (I've had receeding gums for 30 years) and save it..grrrr I hate dentists, I never used to but the whole cancer thing left me utterly  fed up with being prodded and poked...oh well I guess I pay for the insurance so I better use it.


The book is slowly picking up speed again, I ground to a massive halt when I was ill, and the momentum has been utterly destroyed, but its picking up, I honestly don't see me making the end of the month deadline (which I think is the last friendly extension I am going to get) but I don't think I'll be too far away, maybe another couple of weeks over. I have a week off coming up on the 27th and I will be turning off the internet and just working none stop till its done.

And on that note, time for this short break to end and for me to walk Harvey and get back up stairs to imprint my butt cheeks and impregnate some flatulance into it.




Ahthankyew

Ah think am a back babeeee

A few days of doing small tasks, but getting them done and I am finally starting to feel like I can take on some work and get it done.

Now, somehow I have to squeeze 2-3 months work I should have done in  Dec and Jan into 28 days.....going to be tight.


Ahthankyew

The cushion didn't work out

despite being a fat bugger, there's not a lot of padding on my butt cheeks (I still have a cute tuche), and the cushion went a bit hard after an hour..so I went to Makro to take advantage of ther 25% discount weekend.,



its nice..my butt is comfy again... now what else can I do to avoid work?

Ahthankyew

Feeling better take 2

Ok, trying again, the little relapse only lasted 48hrs, and have been safe and warm at home, finally making a start on catching up on all the lost work.

My only issue now seems to be absurd sleeping habits, like tonight, after about 4 hours of coding,  I went to have a little lie down at 8pm as I was feeling tried, and figured a 30 mins snooze would not hurt.

I keep forgetting that snoozing when you live alone with no one to give you a nudge in 30 mins isn't a great idea.

So 4am, I am awake and wondering what to do with the early morning.

Work of course..But at least I am starting to get back into a flow, very slowly, but a few pages added to the book, and a 3D project starting to make sense.

Only one thing is bothering me...I really am starting to dislike my office chair, its one of those mesh chairs, solid enough but for the time I spend sitting in it, it does not feel nice..I don't get the sense that its making me want to sit for 8+ hours.

I was in Makro today and tried out a really awesome leather (maybe fake) chair...but at 150 ex vat, its a lot of cash.......

am I just making excuses? or will a couple of cushions solve the problem...time to get a couple of cushions and see...

....time passes

hmm cushion works quite well, think I just needed by bum raised a couple of inches higher than the chair could do.


Ahthankyew

I spoke too soon

3 glorious days with no coughing fits, ended with a coughing fit, and another and another and...

fuckkkk me.,...


working from home today, staying as warm and cosy as possible, dog walks not withstanding and hoping its just a small relapse.


seriously fed up now.


Ahthankyew

I think its over..

3 days with no major cough fits, and I am starting to regain some energy...I think it over, the odd cleansing cough aside...

That... was....fucking....terrible

A month, a whole month and a few days,  lost to being ill, is it age that causes that? I eat and live quite healthy, a little overweight sure, but ...a month to get over a flu and chest infection!!.

horrible, horrible time, and its cost me so much work, I did almost nothing on the book, as my brain didn't connect to my fingers, missed several rehearsals with both bands, in fact...this will tell you how bad it was, I barely even touched a guitar....something I normally do every day, but there were days when I just had no desire.

I've lost so much momentum on the book, but other things have to come into focus now, I got behind on student feedback, and on some of my smaller projects. Also there's no food in the house, aside from a couple of weeks of freezer lottery, I haven't had a major shopping spree for provisons and tinned/dry goods, has to be done soon.

Time to try to get into the zone again...if I can. Start small, do little things to completion and gather up a head of steam\

Watch out world, I'm coming back.......maybe


Ahthankyew

is it over?

I had THE worst fit of coughing ever yesterday for about 20 mins laying down on the couch, it was horrible, but since then it seems to have died down at last...not totally gone, still the odd little clearing cough, but...I think...maybe...another day and it will be gone.

fingers crossed
.


Ahthankyew

oh c'mon

yup, still sick, still no mojo, still not able to get any real work done.

Going to try to do some codeing this weekend, don't care what, just got to push things throw and get some momentum going, I have a 3D Pi project to write to test that it can be doen for students, it also forms an important chapter in the book so if I can get that done a lot of the last pieces of the book will fall into place.

if...if I can stop coughing all day and collapsing with exhaustion at silly o'clock.



Ahthankyew

Missing the mojo

Even though I am finally on the mend, though still being plagued by coughing fits when I get a bit tired, I am not in a good mental place. Cloudy thinking and a total lack of motivation to work are just not pushing me forward at all.
I've still got shit loads to do with the book, some serious coding to get done and no matter how long I  sit at my screens I just have nothing coming from the brain to the fingers.

I need to find a way to push through this barrier, its really quite serious, I've had blocks like this in the past but never really for this long. I need to just get something done to clear the block, lol its like mental constipation, once I get the block shifted I hope the rest will come through a bit easier :D




Ahthankyew

still sick

I know, I should have gone to the doctors, but frankly getting out of bed  has been a massive effort most days, never mind calling before 9 so I've jsut been resting and chilling as much as possible,  dog walks in the cold not being too helpful.

I am improving, very slowly, the odd coughing fit aside I am aware of a a slight improvment every day, but wow am I weary...at this rate my Monday I will be almost fit...jsut in time to start work

FML


Ahthankyew

ok 2017, lets see if you can do a bit better

Here we go, another new start, 2016 was a horrible horrible year,so many deaths of childhood heroes.

And on a personal level so many mistakes and cock ups, but also good things, the book is almost done...(please be this month, please be this month)

I think this was the 1st time ever I went to bed sober...totally 100% sober.. Not sure I've done that since I  was 12. The tail end of a chest infecgtion from the Christmas flu,  and a poorly judged drinking session with Dutch Giant Jelmer who matched me drink for drink a few days after christmas, have put me right off booze for now.

But despite an early drink free night, I slept terribly, the fireworks went on till well after 3am, and poor Harvey was very stressed out by every single boom and bang.
Finall I dropped off, only to wake up at 6 and then 9-30 ...so back to bed.

but I got up at 2, feeling a bit rough, and the cough confirms the infection is still there...I'll give it a couple more days then go see the doc again. He'll be happy to see me I'm sure.



Ahthankyew

ups and downs of life

So Im about to face another christmas alone, but am far from sad about it, in fact its a bit of a relief. I had planned to spend it with someone I met on line and invited to stay with  me over christmas.
But rather than the funny cute witty girl I spent a lot of time chatting to, her evil twin sister turned up. It was clear on the 3rd day after 2 very tense days of her non stop yapping and arguing over the most trivial of things.

Its never good to say bad things about people, but wow, what a total cow, selfish, immature, irresponsible, and an absolute narcisist..

I could outline the crazy shit she did over the 3 weeks she was here, there wasn't a single day that went past (when she was actually here) , but it would end up as a novel.  She was making my life a living hell, and taking serious advantage of my good nature while simultanioulsy doing her best to run me down at every opportunity.

But after a series of stay overs with other people (probably men) she'd met on line(at my expense) she finally buggered off with some other guy. He's welcome to her, poor chap is in for a world of crazy, I had an incredibly lucky escape. Chrismas on my own is now a blessing.
Im dissapointed of course in one way, and its been a costly gamble, financial and emotionally, but I don't regret trying, I'd had worse blind dates, but you  can walk away from those. This was just a longer blind date.. It won't stop me trying again once I've had time to get over the impact.

And another up, last night Whetstone had their 1st proper gig, there were a few mistakes of course, I messed up one massive solo, but the fact is, it was a brilliant and lots of fun, We'll iron out the kinks when we review the footage, and increase our repetoire for new gigs. But it was brilliant.



And on the downside, I started to feel a bit crappy yesterday and was worried I woould not be able to perform my 1 song in the gig...but I managed it. But now I'm in the grip of a horrible cold.

oh well, shit happens.

Ahthankyew

818 and the 1st reviews

818 pages, and still more to go, did I say a while back I was finished lol

its ok, I just keep adding to it and will edit it when I'm done.

my 10 students working through it are all providing really good info on missing content or confusions and I'm editing those in, this has been invaluable, and they all like it so far, which is even more ego boosting...

not much done this week, had a bit of a health scare, nothing serious just a little abcess in my throat that popped and I never felt it...but it gave me indigestion and bad taste/breath on an epic scale...anitbiotics to the rescue though



Ahthankyew

800 pages

I have reached a major milestone....800 pages...its not all in a good correct order yet, but 800 pages..

wow...thats amazing.

800....I hope to fuck I don't get to 900.

Book has been pushed back to Jan 31st...I really hope I can get the projects up and running now.. The content will edit down, but the projects are going to be the killer on this... Thgey need to work, they need to be playable, yet not too complex

Must keep my nose to the grindstone and focus on it


Ahthankyew

Silly old flatulent fart

Its true older men do lots of silly things for the sake of love and a pretty face.

But I doubt anyone can really claim to be as silly as me. Full story might come later, but lets just say there's no fool like an old fool.


Ahthankyew

Regroup time

Well, the book was supposed to be delivered yesterday, and it was, kinda, but its not finished! Content wise I feel its all there, but I have to put a lot more of the projects in there and they are not all done and therefore a lot of the project work is not properly documented...But I sent the MS, and am waiting for feedback. An extension has again been given, which will let me take some time off at Xmas.

I feel a little deflated about not hitting that, but it was clear about 2 weeks ago that I didn't have enough time to get the projects competed and other things were starting to creep into my writing time.

Oh well, 2 more months, as long as I keep at it at least the 20 hours pw I plan it will get done.




Ahthankyew

Oh great, dentist time

Fantastic, lost a filling, so now have to call up the dentist and make an appointment to get the filling replaed and probably get my troubelsome wisdom tooth pulled, and maybe they can save a probably dead incisor which is the product of 25+ years of receeding gum, that has resisted every toothpaste nd mouth wash under the sun, even the stuff that really really burns.


Oh well I guess its time, I've been a bit scared of the denstist since the whole having my jaw ripped out cos of cancer thing...but its probably time I started my regular 6 monthly visits, after all i am paying bloody insurance for it.

Anyway, I have a special guest coming to stay with me for a few months, so denstist hassles aside, I've got a lot to look forward to today,  Lets see how that works out.


Ahthankyew

tits. lost 9 pages

I had some comments in the margins of the book, using a Word feature, and to print out a few chapters I removed them, so I was more than a little upset to seem my 768 pages suddenly turn into  759 due to some reformatting of the size of the page..

oh well, its still going well, but not going to make end of the month delivery, a couple of the projects are holding me up, and I'm short some art and cartoons....will send what I have on Friday and get another extension.

It is looking good though.




Ahthankyew

756 and still finding things todo

As I was writing I added a lot of todo notes, things that needed code or art, so I'm going back through those and shit...there's a lot.

The Page count is rocketing up due to the code snippets going in, but sometimes I need to have a little discussiona about what's doing and that's eating up time

damn this thing is never going to end past 1000 pages

Ahthankyew

721 yup, flying now

As I expected, adding in code snippets and explaining them is really quite a straightforward way of moving forward, Also a few illustrations nave gone in to bulk things up.

I am still having some nightmares about how to explain physics, I'm not going to try to write a library, I am just going to use Bullet Physics, but I dunno  how much I need to explain the concept...and indeed learn exactly how Bullet works, (I tend to use PhysX)  I will tell you when I get it all working in place...and then decide how to write about it.


Anway, code is flying out, pages are flying out, its going well. The 2D stuff is complete, and I've got to put together a couple of SVN repositories so my students can test it for me...

exciting.



Ahthankyew

700 pages....homestraight here we come

I hit 700 pages last night, wow....what a landmark.

I'm pretty much done with the writing now, really its a case of including code snippets and explinations of what they do and its done..  That almost certainly will take it up past 800. and I need to edit it down then

I printed it out the other week at 550 pages and its 2 inches thick double sided printing too...probably 3 inches now.

Flipping through it, its very nice, still a few things I need to pad out a bit, and maybe some things to drop, but it really does seem to be quite complete to me, It should take a beginner from Hello World, to Halo...not sure they'll do it in the 30 days I had originally hoped for, I added a lot of small tester projects in there to compliment the game projects so things grew...

Of course I still have to finish the projects, sometimes thats a bit frustrating becuase I really can't go into the level of quality/depth I normally do but as long as its expandable, the readers can take it to new levels.

Cannot wait to finish it....so I can go out and do things again.


Ahthankyew

oops had to kill 10 pages

I'm starting to lose the plot, I repeated a section I'd already written afew weeks ago, so I had to examine both versions and merge into 1.. lost 10 pages doing that. But was able to get them back in the session explaining a top down chase game, as a means of demonstrating environment interaction. and then twisting that into a side view platformer

There is actually a lot of repetition in some parts, not direct repeats like this, but restating a point made a few pages before, I have to edit that sort of stuff out. A point well made does not need to be restated, it can be referred to but not defined twice... Sometimes though when I pop back to finish a section now that the code for it is complete I do that in the code explination.,

That's one reason why I am aiming for 800 pages before I start to edit, I'm bound to lose 50 or more in the edit process with things like that.

Can't wait to get to 700 pages though, hoping to do that tonight when I add the code for the chase and platform games.

the other 100 "should" now come quite easy as its almost all code explinations, only the Physics stuff to really explain, and I'm using an engine so I'm not really going to get too into  the maths, just set it up, show it working and let the user get into it.

I can see the bend for the home straight, time to kick for home.


Ahthankyew

683...I need a break

Nope, can't take a break, have to get more pages written, but it is starting to feel complete. Only the section on Physics is still in a frameowrk format, I'm hoping I can work that out next week.

This week finishing up the 2D code, pasting it in, and then clearing up the 3D work which will of course use the physics.

2 reasonably quiet weeks coming up, so hopefully will be able to devote more than 4 hours a night to it.

Ah well if its not done, its not done, I will have to extend again, I think the publishers will be impressed by the amount and quality done..

I hope :D


In other news....there may be romance in the air, or their may not, not really sure yet, been chatting online with someone and we're going to be meeting up soon. Will have to just play it by ear.


Ahthankyew

670 pages its getting there

I think, think its all there...still need to pad a few sections and do something about so simple AI concepts.


Ahthankyew

653 and counting

653 pages...its getting close to the end, though I'm kinda stuck on occlusion culling at the moment, I do know what it is and how to do it, but its quite a chore to get it up..I have to though, as one of the games requires a portal rendering system....ho hum
I also need a lot more graphics, and don't have access to a tame artist...that might prove to be a problem.

I wasted quite a bit of time trying to draw a very large scene, thinking it was possible, but it turned out I'd totally got my sums wrong and there as now way a 128M GPU could cope with the numbers I was sending...oops.

Sound is also proving quite hard, but mostly due to needing to take small steps and follow a lot of tutorials...and only with wavs at the moment

And lastly I am having some real problems with procedural texturing....even though I have copious notes on it, I'm struggling to explain it in the simple way the book demands.


I mustn't think too much about all the things that are still needed to be finished, I know there's still a lot of project work, but like all computer projects it boils down to doing 1 task at a time until they are done...thats all I can do.. I have a month left. I think I can certainly get all the content I want in. Whethere the demos will be as good as I want is another story!





Ahthankyew

Well thats not workiing

Damn, the diet is not going well, though I do confess to a few cheats, I did think I had cut back a lot on my food.. Lots of walking, lots of increased mobility, still a reliuctance to go to the gym.
I have been sick since Frieday with a cold, and did a bit of feeding it...but not to excess.

But nope, the weight is not going down, and still hovering around 92/93KG depending on how desperate I am for a pee.

Going to have to try harder, and most certainly need to stop cheating, and do more excersise.




Ahthankyew

New band, new singer...wow...

This isn't all the band, and we've decided on a name, Whetstone...we're still messing about with song styles and set lits but we have a gig in December so we need a few videos, we decided to have one acoustic number for promo purposes, we didn't expect much from this..

but what we got.....is amazing

I honestly get goosebumps listening to this Rosemary is going to be a great addition, this is a raw audio upload from the camera mics....the mixed version where we add a touch of warmth, tone the guitar and beef the bass, is amazing.

Ahthankyew

oh but of course...

I am now on holiday, basically the equivilent of half term, a whole week off, I of course plan to do lots of book work, ideally get 100 pages or more done...and 2 projects done.... If can can crack 700 pages by Thursday I am going to get ratarsed drunk on Friday as I spend a final week editing and adding code to bring the book up to its final form

But what happens at 5pm on Friday as my holiday officially starts..

my nose starts running.


Yup,...a cold, soon to be man flu, soon to be the bubonic plague....
Its saturnday, I'm sat on my couch, bleary red eyes, 2 bits ot tissue stuck up my nose and unable to focus even on this screen...no work has been done.

fml


Ahthankyew

592 pages...but still so much to do

I really wanted to crack 600 pages tonight, but I just ran out of steam. I have written and frankly learned more about 3D maths in the last few weeks than I have ever known in 20 years. Its not a subject I enjoy, but writing it out and explaining it in ways a fat 52yo Scotsman would understand has made a lot of things clearer to me. I knew a lot of this stuff, but I didn't "know" it, however researching it has made it more clear to me. I suspect writing this book has filled in a lot of dark spots in my understanding of maths.....not all of them, its still mostly magic to me, but quite a lot of things now seem clearer/

I've still got to clean up a lot of the projects and go back into the book to make sure I've not edited the code listings too much. Beginners hate when the code in the book does not match the code on the website. But certainly for most of the 2D projects and the 3D base projects it should be fine adding code listings that users are expected to type in is a clear 50 pages.

The 2 final 3D projects, an enviroment explorer and a 1st person shooter, are not yet started but the foundation projects for them are done and looking so cool. I have never actually written anything so low level before, I've always had an engine provide me with access to graphics and entity classes, but here its all been my code, and fuck me it works :D

I might need to sit down with some colleagues though, to get a few more simple graphics and models/textures out of them to make the games a bit more interesting graphically.

Next week we have a week off, and am confident that I can spend that time to smash the 600 and maybe the 700 page barrier.

I am guessing that I probably need to write 800 pages by the middle of November, since I am quite sure I will need to edit it down to 700-750, before I hand it over to the publisher for their edits at the end of November.

I sense a home straight, I'm not quite there but its just around the corner.





Ahthankyew

Ah like art me, I don't know much about it but I know what I like

We had a field trip to Den 'Haag today, a city I've been through many times but never acutally visited. Its was very nice. We went to a couple of art museums. The Gemeente Museum being a "proper" art museum where the curators were at great pains to tell me to looke after my "children". I refused and argued with the classification. They are university students, adults, not children.

And also we were told to keep quiet, even to the point of not talking about the exhibits...really don't like that kind of snobbishness. The students were discussing and in one case of an interactive maze, were laughing and enjoying the interaction, only to have a snobbish old bag, insist they be quiet and leave the exhibit....really missing the point I  thought. Art is ment to excite...not be subduede

Their big catch is a 35 million Euro, abstract piece by Piet Mondrain, the guy who did all the blocks and line paintings,...apparently it cost over 35million.................yup you can walk up and probablly touch it....though I am sure the curators will die of a heart attack..

Sorry.....I like art, I even like some abstract art...but.........not geting it, pretentious nonsense in my mind.

After the Gemeente  we went to the MC Escher, now that was talent, skill and staggering beauty. really wonderful and strange things I will go there again one day

Ahthankyew

Ahh matrices...

Bloody hate them, I screwed up a simple thing and it took me ages to locate it... OpenGL uses Row Major ordering...must remember must remember.

Ahthankyew

Still 92kg

Not entierly surprised, I did cheat and eat a takeaway this week and nibbled before bedtime, more than once...but its ok, I am getting used to being hungry and can resist 1 in 10 times ;)

nah its ok I've done a lot more excercise and have cut out a lot of fat and carbs. I've actually even broken my bike, need to take it to the repair shop, spokes broke, think its fixable without a new wheel but it needs new brakes as well so time for a service.. All this extra effort is way more than I am used to so the weight will drop down over the weeks. Just have to keep up the long dog walks and keep eating the rabbit food at lunch  time.,


only thing I really find frustrating is the feeling of hunger after I eat...small portions suck

Ahthankyew

Week 1...92kg

Not a bad start, though mostly its due to flushing out pizza and kebabs but its still a net loss so I am pleased

Been restrictring myself to 3 small meals,  usually a small bowl of musli, or a boiled egg to start. I usually don't eat breakfast, so am surprised that doing this makes me very hungry about 30mins earlier than usual, so I've been grabbing lunch in the canteen a bit earlier.

However instead of my usual full baguette, I have been having the half baguette or the lowest calorie options,  and recently some dipping veg, carrots/celery etc with humas dups....horrible rabbit food, but its doing the job

Evening meals have been udon and seared tuna broths, , quality burgers in pita, with lettuce, and small steaks in pitta. Usually 2 times on the bounce, part of my efforts to not eat for 2 but instead to have 1 portion 1 day and the other the next. So I can't avoid buying for 2, but don't have to eat for 2.

I've succumbed to evening hunger a few times, but have had a bit of cheese and pickle or boiled egg or a small bowl of musli to avoid goiing to bed hungry. I will get some carrot sticks and dips and try to fill up on celery and carrots

Also of course been upping my excercise with brisk walks with Harvey and cardio visits to the gym,

Harvey's pleased at least

Ahthankyew

Arm and a bit of a leg

I just bought tickets to see Joe Bonamassa in April next year in Antwerpen.

:D

bloody expensive...but 2nd row...I should get some sweat dripping on me, which if I can catch it I might be able to make into a potion that gives me some of his skills???? no?

oh well I'll still have a great experience, though I honestly feel the cost of the tickets, over 224euros for a pain, is absurd... He's a great star no doubt, but a few years ago his prices were under 50 euros...now its silly money... But ...gotta go see the new crown prince of the blues.

Next step, finding a nice woman to go with me,....maybe if I advertise the tickets I'll get them running?

Ahthankyew

Solar payback

In case you had forgotten, last year I fitted some solar panels up on my roof, a pair of sizable 250w ones. And have been eagerly waiting to see what the results would be.

Its hard to actually measure, as I also made some other small changes in the way I use electricity in the house. I swapped out a lot of my bulbs for LED's and put a 15min on-15 off timer on the air circulation system, as well as a few other things.

I was a bit annoyed that after fitting my panels last year, my leccy bill was actually set higher than the previous year, so I am almost certain I've been overpaying @144 a month it was around 126pm before that.
Well the years invoice came in today, and 3 things caught my eye.

1st a massive rebate of 373 euros :D
2nd a reduction of my bill to 111 pm....
3rd a very small payment for my contribution to the grid, only 1.26 euros, but considering I have something in the house drawing power most of the time, any contribution is brilliant.

I looked up the graph on the company site  to compare past years usage and I seem to be using about 10-20euros less electricity pm...which is the real benefit of the panels. The overcharge amounts for the bulk of the rebate I am sure, but the very fact I get some payment for my electricity means my panels are contributing something to my power usage. I'm estimating about 1/3rd to 1/2 is due to the panels.

Quite pleased by that, in 3-4 years the panels will pay for themselves and still give 6 more years at least of generation, and that's a better investment of the cash spent than a bank account interest would give.

Green is good.

Ahthankyew

Vari focals, a new way to simulate being drunk!

Ok,. so I have my new vari focals...and they take a bit of getting used to, when you quickly change view, you have to move your head to bring what you are looking at into focus.

This is really not at all unlike the sensation of being drunk and trying to focus on the policeman to explain to him you are more than capable of driving!

It also is making me a little light headed. Apparently that wears off after a few days.

Its odd, though, and they do work I am able to read and look across the room all in clear focus, but it is odd...very odd... can't describe it any other way.


Ahthankyew

95kg start

Well am home, a bit jetlagged, going to bed at 8 and waking up at 3 or 4, though today I managed 6.

I had my last pizza when I got home, simply due to there being no food in the house, and a need for stodge..

But thats it, I've annouced to the world, I am on a diet.I weighed myself and I'm 95kg... shiiiiit I've never been 95kg thats immense.

So the Diet starts.....

Yesterday I had.

Small bowl of museli, with semi skimmed milk

Small/medium sushi from AH

And a medium, portion of Bami Nasi at Ed's when  I picked up Harvey I would have had less, but Ed made an effort to make dinner so I had to eat.

No snacks, no sugar in my coffee at work...

I am working up to going to the gym, maybe tongiht, I plan a cardio regime for a few weeks, then I''ll try to up the pace a bit.

Not sure I'm going to give an update every day, but we'll see how it goes.

target is 70kg...no excuses, 70kg...even that is a little above my ideal weight for a short slim build bloke, which is what I am under this sumo outfit,  but its 25kg...25fucking kilos to lose!!!!

Bring it on.

Ahthankyew

Who's that fat dude!

Oh, its me.

So upsetting to see so many pics of me, while at TGS and shit I am a sumo wrestler.. Its kinda pathetic. I have been piling on the kilo's the last few months, and this is the result. I really really have to focus and fix myself on losing 25kg, no excuses now, I have had to deal with being totally out of breath going up subway stairs, struggling to suck in the humid air, sweating like an afore mentioned sumo, and the sight of me on the toilet, in my crampped hotel room, staring at the wardrobe mirror as the door was open........it was beyond bad.

I seem to have gotton over the folds concern, but now I'm becoming a bhudda, and not a very wise one.

The food here is amazing, and healthy and filling, Though even there I am noticing I can eat 3 portions....clearly thats nonsense.

When I get back, its going to be a proper healthy food kick, and....gym...yes I know I hate it, but there's no way this beer barrel of a belly is going to go down to even close to a 2 pack until I get some muscle tone back.


I was around 94kg when I left, my heaviest ever...so going to aim for 70...and this time I will get it done by christmas!

Ahthankyew

we survived

Well thats the Tokyo Game Show over and done with, it was quite a blast, and an eye opener for sure.

Things we realise now...bring games...the TGS attendee's want to play game's not listen to a nice graduation reel.

English, is really not commonly spoken at all, they all study it, but have no practical ability to use it, this creates issues for any students who want to study in Europe and equally for any europeans who want to go  there.  This is the biggest hurdle.

The market is, utterly utterly different, the style of games, the type of games, the target platform of games, all are different. This makes no great difference to coders like myself, but a Europen artist or designer would need to learn a totally differnt set of criteria to survive here.

Demand for education is sky high, they had a whole section of a hall dedicated to universities and games acadamies in Japan, and the work was pretty impressive. I can't honestly say it was better than our work, but the art and design styles were clearly for the japanese market

If we are going to make inroads into Japan, we need to partner up with one of these schools, and see where it goes. Its' going to be a long process though.

A few meetings to do today and a trip to Kyoto tomorro to see a company, then heading back on Wednesday morning....

Will we be back next year? maybe, but not with  the same tiny section and lack of content, lessons have been learned.

Ahthankyew

ouchie

The damage I did a few days ago walking to the Dutch Embassy with unbroken in shiny funeral shows, has taken its toll. further walking around at the TGS has resulted in my blisters getting blisters, and on bboth feet at the same time whch I have to say is a bit of a killer when you consdier how much we have to walk around at the show, and getting to and from stations.
Even with my trainers on, I ended up hobbling around as we tried to find somewhere to eat on our return from the 1st day....both feet look like this

Not my idea of fun.

But the show is going well, we have collected a couple of interesting contacts with universities and with companies, which I hope we can convert into new business dealings between them and NHTV. Its very hard to do sometimes, there is a massive language barrier to over come.

Many Japanese do actually study english and have a basic understanding of it, but almost no practical use, so they can handle a few words, but not a whole sentence or even any confidence to respond in english. Its actually worse than my Dutch, I do understand quite a bit, and can make a good attempt at saying things but no, the Japanese struggle. Thats going to be the single biggest hurdle we have to overcome if we want to attract students to us.

Today I've been given a free day for my feet to recover, our stand is very small and after the 1st day its clear we don't need all of us there even if we were doing rotation shifts. So each has taken 1 of teh days to chill and regroup.

Here's a video I did of a quick tour of the halls on day 1, which is a business day and not as crowded as it will be at the weekend.

Ahthankyew

Found a bar!

We went to a "networking" event last night, which was basically a very large, very loud party...not my idea of fun at all, but there was free booze, which somehow seemed to improve my feelings about the place. ;)

However the sound of screetching drunken japanese girls gets to be a little annoying after while, and Martin and I left to go hunt for a sensible bar..

Which we finally managed to find, with Cider or Cyder, on tap, and even more wonderful, they took my credit card.

pity they closed at 1am but was good night.

Ahthankyew

Tokyo Tum is a real thing

Just as I thought I'd got used to the jetlag, I discovered another danger, I seem to be allergic to something in Japanese food..No idea what, but at a reception in the Dutch embassy we were all treated to a really lovely bento box for lunch, containing all kinds of nice tasty and...some not so tasty but interesting things.

This is a factor in Japanese cuisine, taste isn't the most important thing, texture is also part of the experience.

Anyway, being the omnivore I am, I heartily embraced the 4 compartment box, and ate the lot....only to discover 20 mins later I had someting I like to refer to as Mumtaz tum.

Basically a very strong, non nogotiable, urgent, as in now, don't bother to take of your pants, you probably won't make it, need to get to the loo. Something I used to get quite regularly when I ate at the Mumtaz restraunts in Bradford. Don't get me wrong the food itself is wonderful, Mumtaz and the Dutch  embassy, but clearly there is something in there I  simply don't get along with.

Fortunatly I did manage to get to the loo,  twice at the embassy. And then was lucky enough to get a taxi back to my hotel just in time for the next 4 or 5 hours of cleansing which took place...leaving me a bit ...wrecked...add to that the tiny touch  of jet lag still in my system and I was sparked out at 7pm  till after 3am when I started to stir, not quite sure if I  could snooze my way throough 4 hours till breakfast.

I am now empty, though still rumbling a bit, which might make travelling around today a bit risky, so have given up my  slot at a company visit to one of our other representatives so I can slowly pick things up again.  Pretty sure I'm ok now, but wish I knew what it is that triggers the Mumtaz and Tokyo tum.
Oh also I should have brought a pair of 6innch high heels, since they would have been far more comfortable than the pair of formal black brogues I brough with me, I was nearly crippled wearing them.. I won't be wearing them again, fortunaly I brought a few pairs of more confortable shoes which should allow me to stand around for 8  hours at a time at the show........hmmmmmm heels?



Ahthankyew

just want to sleep..

Tokyo  is  7 hours ahead, and as you might expect, that meant when we arrived at 8 it was 1 in the morning for us, and we hadn't slept on the plane at all. Despite me buying a 35euro neck collar, I  just could not get comfortable enough on the plane for anything more than a 2 min nap that meant I missed the end of family guy :( I wish my kickstarter plan pillow had arrived, chances are it will be there when I get back.oh well...next time eh!

3 movies were watched on the plane. X-men Apocalypse...oh boy, that was pretty crap but mostly because I was annoyed how they messed up  the characters and even their own continuity so bad..it was enjoyably bad, but bad.

Also Lucy...Luc Besson film..........wow.,..all kinds of utter nonsense in this one, absurd premise, bad bad bad writng and even really bad direction every single scene was too long, every single one.. and the ending.....jezus wept...I  mean its too bad to even describe.

Finally Nina, a biopic on the later life of the divine Ms Simone, who wasn't as divine in real life! A most troubled and lonely lady. It did remind me a lot of some people who've been in my life struggling with mental illness...in fact it hit a lot of chords for me.. But it seemed to focus on too short a time span of her remarkable life, there were bad times for sure, but there were amazing inspirational times too, that should have been given much more cover. Music was awesome of course, even if it wasn't her that was singing the impression was close.

We made a pact to stay away as long as possible and do some sight seeing the in humid heat of tokyo which meant walking around a lot, getting mroe and mroe tired. Our resolve to stay up till 8 quickly faided around 2-30 and we went back to the hotel, to freshen up and check in as we'd arrrived too early to do that.
That freshen up turned into a, lets take an hours nap, then 1.5 hours.. but by 6 we went on the hunt for some food and booze. finding a nice little place where the food, rare morrocan lamb, was amazing..even if a small portion. Before heading back to sleep proper.

Up at 5am....but went to bed around 9..so had a good long sleep and should be able to get onto the Japanese time zones today.

After yesterdays humid heat, its now a cooler rainy day.  So hope we can get around with less afatigue.
We had major problems getting hold of cash though, which we need since there isn't really a card culture here, turns out my credit card is dead, since the mag strip on it has worn away, and they don't use chip systems here....which would not be a problem if I'd not lost my new bank card the day before shipping out which caused me to port money over to my credit card...oops.

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I've got the company card for legit expenses though and Chris and Martin have worked out how to get cash from the local ATM's so we should be good to go, as long as we're not buying gold pressed latium asprin any more..12 euros for a packet of aspirin.. !@!@#!@# 12 euros...jeezes wept.. even more annoying there was paracetamol in my bag at the hotel, but I really needed something for a headache when we were out.
Food here is cheap, but it seems everything else is very expensive.

Going to do a bit of cleaning up to arrange my small but fuctional hotel room, and then a bit of work till brekky, and be ready for the day.

Ahthankyew

Watch out Tokyo

Here I come

2 weeks of meetings, and game show, but am sure there will be some chances to do some fun things too.

should have wifi when I get there, but if not, will catch up in 2 weeks.

Good news from the publisher, I got an externsion to finish up the projects :D and they are liking the look of it so far, as I finally managed to get a manuscript to them to check out

Nice to  know that 9-10 months of work has been well recieved

I'll try to do some work over there, but my schedule is pretty packed, so probably just going to do some reading and transcribe work logs to the book on the plane...its one way to pass 11 hours at least :D

seeya later


Ahthankyew

pop, ow, oh yes I heard that

3 days my ear has been blocked, up...and today it was decidedly painful but finally around 3pm, my ear was becoming more and more uncomfortable and I was being driven near mad by whooshing and squishing sounds, when it finally popped, and I could hear again.

At least for a few seconds, then the sticky goo, which I assume to be seeping from my infected ear started to close it up again.

Its been like that all day, open up and closing, but fact is its getting better. I am cleaning out my ear, (no ear buds) and that stops the sticking which causes the closing.. as soon as my old body has the infection under control the seeping should stop and back to normal.

I can now get on a plane with some degree of certainty that I won't be screaming at 10,000ft in a pressurised cabin unable to equalise my ears.. I might have managed that on a short cross channel hop, but I have to be 11hours on a flight to Tokyo at the end of the week...don't think I have enough oxycontin and booze to get me through that.


Ahthankyew

Pardon?

I've gone deaf in 1 ear...while q-tipping my ears after a shower, my ear seemed to close up.. and I am now deaf in my right ear with a horrible water in my ear sensation, and a constant whislte, as well as hearing my damn blood pulsing through...nothing is getting rid of it..

I went to the drug store and bought ear drops, but sadly I now realise I got the wrong kind, I got the pain drops rather than then wax softners.

I'll go back tomorrow to get the right stuff  In the mean time I have a new found sympathy for my bandmate Jelmer 1 who is deaf in one ear. Its a horrible sensation.

I do hope it clears up soon, the deafness and water sensation is bad enough, but the idea that I might be on a pressurised aircraft for 11 hours next week, with a blocked ear is a bit daunting.

Doctors on Monday if it does not shift

In other news, I discovered the manuscript I sent to my publishers in July bounced..but the bounce notice ended up in my spam folder. Since I wasn't using mail as much over the holidays I didn't pay any notice to the spam folder....doh!

So its a bit of a pisser, I didn't chase for feedback becuase I was so busy writing and it never really worried me.
Anyway, they've sent me a link to an filetransfer system, I will use it tomorrow, I just hope they don't have any problems with it.

Though if they do or don't, I've asked for more time, since the project arrangment is taking me so much longer than I anticipated.

Oh well, all I can do is keep working away, its still fun, though there are days when it just does not seem to work. No one said it was going to be easy :(

Ahthankyew