We're gonna build

Yup, we've decided, and put a small token  downpayment on, the building of a new house... We liked the 4 bed house so much but the worry that it was a bit too small niggled us, so we are buying a plot across from it, which is 2x the size of the 1st house, and building a house 50% bigger with garden and side parking, so that the car park area does not take any of the living space away.
Basically more living room area, larger kitchen, bigger bathrooms (with a bath in the main ensuite), a dedicated office, garage on the side and room for fruit trees and a veg patch.

Early days, initial talks and chat with both the land seller, the architect and builder.... but we agree. 

We are going to build our dream home.

We hopefully wll have it all done by October, and in the mean time we'll start buying things for the new home.

Exciting times ahead.

Ahthankyew

Bike was delivered today, they took a nice delivery photo, but for some reasons decided to obscure my face.... oh well

But its here its nice, need to take it easy for 1K to run it in, so no red lining, they delivered it with a thimble full of petrol, so 1st job was to find petrol, which is easy normally but with roadworks nearby its a bit of a trek around the houses to get to the station. Anyway the thimbleful made it, and it then took just under 300bhat to fill it, not bad at all.

I don't yet have full accident insurance though, and bizzarely I am still allowed to drive without it beign fully registered, but over the next week or two It'll take to get the paperwork sorted to get a full reg and with it a full accident cover....bizzare

It's no Shadow, but it is a nippy comfy scooter, so I think this will last me a while as long as someone does not run me off the road or pull out, or change lanes, or just run up my backside as is quite common here...

relax..relax, I'll be fine. I was properly trained in defensive riding, Im not going to be a lane switching numpty...yet.

Ahthankyew

We're going for it, twice

We have had a look at quite a few houses recently, and most of them have been dissapointing.. yesterday we went to see one we first saw on Youtube a year ago and totally fell in love. We still love it but, its not even close to being viable for us, depsite being a good size and lovely fruit tree filled gardens, it didn't deliver.. It smelled of damp and worse, turned out to be miles away from Chiang Mai town... closer infact to the neighbouring city of Lamphun.. a nice place but... not Chiang Mai

So.. we're exploring the build our own place more forcefully, as noted that almost perfect place is almost perfect, but the builder could build us our perfect place in the plot opposite it, with space for garden and a bigger living area and bedrooms as well as at least one bath in one of the Bathrooms...

So... we're going to go for it.. Meetings are being arranged next week to discuss how to proceed. Basically Jirawan buys the land (I'm not allowed), and we pay the builder to build. It will be within our budget and give us a lot of say over how the final house is built.. I don't like WC's next to the Kitchen for example (ugg), which are common here. We can dictate the lay out of both the Euro and Thai Kitchen, make sure we have a living room with room for nice big sofa's facing TV's and have good sized bedrooms for guests, as well as a purpose built office and nice terrace for relaxing in the sun.

It will be great. I'll update you on this as we go. And it will make for an interesting vlog.


Also I'm buying a new bike, well a scooter, but one big enough to handle my bulk and do a bit of longer distances.. the little 150cc's that are rife here tend to scream a bit when I give them a bit of welly. So I've gone for a slightly bigger 280cc GPX DZ3 SPORT. 

At a later date I might.... might get myself a more traditional bike bike, like a Royal Enfield, but really my cruiser days are over and I can't see myself buying a Hog or another Shadow like most of the old fat bikers here, so this will be the runabout when Jirawan is out with the car and a bit of nipping into town for shopping. 
The car is good, but its not like my little Kia, and needs the air con running full tilt all the time which guzzles gas, even though its half the cost here, we're using twice as much, so this will be a cleaner more economical runabout for me.

Ahh, as I type this I realise Im not going to get a comment from mum, telling me Im crazy to ride a bike here and to be careful....but Im sure she'd be happy to know I'm settling into how things are done here. Miss you mum.

Ahthankyew

Out door cooking

Cooking outdoors is a big part of Thai cooking, thats why many ex pat homes have 2 kitchens, one for the western tastes (hello) and one for the Thai's and their chilli mad cooking (have you met my wife). So even though we have a small kitchen here, at the rental house, we realised we needed to do more with our outside terrace, so we got some out door cooking stuff. Need to get some charcoal and gas/fittings.. They didn't come with them...strange.. But soon we can cook all the thai food we need without gassing the termites.

Ahthankyew

Did we? Actually?

Find a perfect forever home??? Wellll maybe, its certainly very close.. Jirawan and I went to go look at a house in Saraphi which to me seems like a more rural area than we are now but actually quite close to the local markets and a short car/scooter ride into town.
We saw a 4 bed house, partially furnished and part of a new area being developed, so more houses are going to be built next/opposite it.

The house itself ticks almost all our boxes, the space itself is fractionally less than we want, but not that much less.. And the price is 3.5M baht, which is about 100K... 100K for a 4 bed house.. its pretty awesome.. and gives us plenty of residual house sale funds to live off quite nicely until pensions pay out. We'd have to spend 1M or so getting an outside kitchen (Thai style) added, air con and fully furnished but thats still well within our max budget.. even below our mid budget.

So we're excited but torn.. Its too soon really to buy a house we still have to keep the rental on this place till Oct,  and there's that tiny niggle that its might be fractionally too small... (4 beds..are you insane.... no theres's still a matter of storage and stuff to consider).

So while we "could" put a bid in now, we are going to wait, since the builder informs us they will start another house next to that one in the next few months, ready around July/Aug... Now that fits in with our timeline for a new house.. and it will be fractionally bigger, not massive but fractionally.

So we are thinking this might be the approach we will take, we will also be allowed to make some tweaks to the build to accomodate our slightly odd needs,  lots of power in the office, network connections, a pantry, a western style kitchen and a purpose built Thai kitchen, and a larget balcony to sit and have drinks watching the sun go down.

We will see what transpires, but if the quality of this build can be maintained with just a smidgen more space without a massive price hike.. we may have found the perfect home... watch this space.

In the meantime I've been on a comforts of home hunt, and have discovered a pentiful supply of Pies, Bacon, HP sauce and huge Ribeye steaks... The freezer is groaning a bit under the weight of it all. but for easy 1/3 the cost of what it would be in NL I have steaks, pies, bacon, stewing meat, mince aplenty...oh and Cadbury's :D This will last months.

I am starting to enjoy myself a bit now too, there's been a sense of not quite knowing what to do with my days, but its getting easier.. I get up, when I wake up, not before, do a bit of coding work on the book stuff, check the forms, not much activity still, then we decide what we plan to do today... and we do it... no stress... its great.

Ahthankyew

A sense of purpose....

Yeahhhh that... its missing.. I am certainly enjoying getting up without alarm clocks, but my days don't currently have a massive sense of purpose. I have some support work to finish on my Book website, which is proving problematic as my nice new Mini PC while a very solid bit of kit, isn't quite up to the job of doing video edits... dammit, more money needed on a new PC soon.

But overall, yeah... I am finding the lack of purpose to be quite a factor.. As I get fewer and fewer emails from students (basically none) asking for help I find my need to check up on them, also reducing..

Its bascially called letting go...that sense of responsibility and need to help, no longer has a purpose in our new life and it is...honestly a bit scary.

The Book website needs to be my prime focus for at least the next month or so, starting to get readers contacting me... so I suspect once I get enough of them asking for help I will again have some purpose.. But overall..its quiet....too quiet :D

Ahthankyew

Last of the purchases?

Yeah I think I am getting a little too shopee happy. Its a great service and no doubt that things are quite a bit cheaper here than in NL but I need to start cutting back. A few hundred/thousand saved is still a few hundred spent.

But I am feeling good about my last, and not very expensive purchase, a new split slanted keyboard.. It does feel a lot less sensitive and less prone to random accidental key presses than the other I had.  

Theres something reassuring about a full size keyboard where you can press one button to print screen/calculator and scroll lock... much nicer, it doesn't have the reassuring click but it works nice.

Also my 2nd last purchase was a stream dock to help control some of my video recording and editing, I bought the really nice Elgato prompter from Amazon last week and it arrived a few days ago, awesome ... But the dock lets me contol the OBS display with 1 button presses instead of lots of clicking and ticking.

But that needs to be it... enough spending on things I don't need now, all the main things I use for coding/recording and music making are now replaced and in some cases enhanced. Time to take care of the pennies.

Ahthankyew

Funds transferred and more purchases

And with my nice new bank account in place, I managed to transfer funds from euros to baht so the required 400K baht visa funds are now in place 

Still only one account though and not an interest bearing account as far as I can tell but for now that's ok.
Get the visa extension and we can then go to the bank and ask for something we can lock those funds into rather than have them in a general non interest account. Since we basically have to keep 400K baht in that account at all times to allow us to continue to extend the visa each year, it's better to lock it away in a long term savings account and have it make a bit of money. 

Though interest rates here are very low....and... worryingly as far as I can tell, savings with interest are only available to Thais, at least with the options I've been presented.. But we'll see. 

Having that account and card and ability to use my phone to pay is a big factor for buying things here. We do still have a couple of large purchase we want to make. Some household things, and a Scooter to get around when the car is in use, for example. 

But even every day things like Grab need that thai based money. The Revolut card is awesome for paying for things, but it's not accepted everywhere.. and of course there's costs when you turn euros into baht even on their internal accounts. 

The sooner overall we have most of our money transferred the better, but right now we are making some sweet interest in the EU which is offsetting some of those transfer costs, so we'll delay the transfer of the house purchase money as long as we can. 

The Chippy, I reported on in October has moved premises and I thought I would give it another go... and...well... same problem, amazing chips, disappointing tasteless fish, couldn't even tell if it was Haddock or Cod. I guess it's just what it is, there's no North Atlantic fish markets here to hand so the fish they have is clearly frozen stock and it just loses a lot of its flavour over the shipping time. 

Pies are probably a better bet. I can't see me staying away but I can't see me being a weekly regular either. 

I'm in the process of ordering a stockpile of some superb Thai farmed beef though from an Aussie farmer in another Thai state who breeds Wagyu cattle, so getting me a load of steaks, stewing steak and mince to load up the freezer for nice meals. This will be pricey but...once a week, western cooking à la Brian will be on the menu at chez Beuken. I can restock every 3-4 months. 

And meet Sky, my one big pressie to myself... No its not GAS, I am not going on a spending spree of guitars, sadly my main guitars are stuck in Netherlands still, Our container assigned before Christmas was cancelled. So our goods are currently awaiting allocation to another container...Can't say I'm happy about this but  apparently it is not uncommon. So my guitars are in that shipment and may be a few more months away. So I needed to get a guitar to play.. Can't not have a guitar... I do have a fairly shitty ovation copy acoustic, but need an electric.. and here she is, a nice G&L Tribute, mid price strat copy, and I have to say I like this a lot. At least until Margarent and Goldie get here.

Now that I have a decent guitar to play I can put my gear back together, finally doing something with my Voicelive3ex I meant to do for years (why the fuck didn't you then...dozy) Put it all on 1 pedal board with a single plug. A cheap power brick under the board powers the VL3 and the HB wireless and it fits in 1 bag to transport.

I'm hoping to locate some musical peeps in the area, even though we can't perform in public here, try to get back into some kind of rehearsals....though not in a massive rush.  

My fingers are still a little painful after my December shower mishap, but slowly getting more flexible, playing guitar is helping. I have a black nail coming through on my middle finger which shows some internal bleeding took place, hmmm guess I was luckier than I thought.

Ahthankyew

Big Boy stuff

Feeling pretty happy with myself today, after a disaster on Wed, not making it to immigration on time, and a total waste of time at a couple of our local bank branches trying to open accounts, I was not a happy bunny at being unable to open an account.

Part of that was the fact that the tellers never talked to me, they spoke directly to Jirawan and I was totally out of the loop, which made it super hard for me to explain exactly what I wanted or to understand exactly why they were unable to do it. Some bizzare excuses were mentioned. I mean totally irrelevent documents including some which were pure fiction (Certificate of residence from the dutch embassy in bangkok????)

Anyway, the banks opened up today in the main shopping malls at least, and I went to town armed with my paperwork to try on my own.... then promptly forgot my paperwork which I left in the car as Jirawan drove off.... doh

Fortunately I just needed to get my online lease printed out which I did at the mall, they had a small print shop I just needed to send them the document and they printed...

And then I went to the bank.  I was told, with no real way to be sure it was true, that SCB was the easiest to work with but the queues were mad, so I went to KasikornThai which I was told with the same lack of certainty, had the best online app.. in English.. There was a big queue there too but I took a ticket and was about to sit down when my number was called...wow...There was a specific teller who's job was to open accounts and she was just finished. 
Sit down, explain I need an account for visa extension and heres my passport and TM.30 which were in my very manly shoulder baggagggge and I had my printed lease... she did a bit of reading, a bit of typing and, then proceeded to go through the process of opening my account, installing my app and setting up everything I needed.

In 15 mins or so, I had an account and app and a debit card... no stress.. 

Now... the fun part is getting money from NL to Thailand.... I can make international transfers, done it many times, but this time it decided right at the death to use an old card slot e-reader to verify the transfer.. Something I have never been asked to do before...and of course... I do have a card based e-reader.... but probably in a box sitting in a warehouse at Rotterdam harbor awaiting shipping.

Buggeration.

I was able however, with a bit of faffing to increase my card limit to send money to my Revolut card, then transfer that to Thai Baht in the cards dual currency account,  at a decent enough rate, then, send it to my account...which then flagged it as suss and asked me to verify...but thats fine, a wise precaution; I verified and a few mins later my funds are on the way. What a faff...

Now thats done, those funds need to stay in the account for 60 days, to allow me to qualify for the marriage visa which needs to have 400K baht in an account for said 60 days... basically they will have to stay there until Im 67 and claiming pension to prove I have enough money to bury me if I pop off or something.

So I've completed an important step to long term living here, getting the account and the money in (should be there by the 6th) in time for the 90 day cut off point to apply for the extension is done... just the paperwork for the visa to do now and I've hired an agent to do 95% of that for us.. 

One more tick on the todo list.

 

Ahthankyew

Home....office

Aside from a little cable tidying, my new office is up and running, yes I am missing a 4 port KVM and a 16 port network switch and a white board, but overall those are not bad issues, I no longer need 10 machines running at once, 2 maybe 3 is just fine. I have to not regret the things I left behind or threw away, everything is replacable if needed... just not sure its needed.

I bought most of the gear from Shopee or Temu so it was dirt cheap (the 2nd monitor was less than 50 euros and tbh you can feel that cheapness, but it works fine... and just as I said that the monitor sparked out for 1 second... I hope thats not a habit). A standing desk was something I had at work, I didn't use it often but I do find it stretches you out a bit to stand sometimes while working, so I took the chance to get one for less than 75euros....lol I mean... why not.

I also got some cheap as chips podcast lights on stands, which really do make a massive difference to the quality of video recordings I want to make for book readers and tutorials.

I had expected to spend a few grand on new gear, but I barely broke 750.... impressive.

So now things are in place its time to find the right time to do work...we need a bit more routine in our lifes. The Jetlag, combined with basic shopping/settling in has been rough, but its a new year so its time to try to make some new routines... not resolutions, they never work.. just a pattern of behaviour that will help us adjust to our new lives as unemployed layabouts :D..sorry retiree's.

The office is also my music room, and I've bought a few things there, which are included in the 750 or so including a cool cheap copy of my roland street cube amp.. This isn't quite complete though, need my electrics to arrive later this month, or next then I can noodle about a bit more (sore fingers permitting)

Yes.. I'm very very happy with my new home office/studio. I hope to be quietly productive here and get all those things I wanted to do done, y'know the things work got in the way of... :D

  

 

Ahthankyew

Did I break em?

9 days later and the 2 fingers I thought I had jarred are still giving me a bit of concern, not swollen now but I still don't have the ability to make a fist, and my ring finger in particular is very painful if I try to press it down into a fist..

I suspect it wasn't a break as it would be much more painful and swollen, but 9 day and still not got full motion is annoying..

Only really a problem for guitar playing though and with just a simple cheap acoustic here at the moment, not a massive issuse.

In other news, I have my new desk and pulled my projects from old drives which lets me finish up the book code content now.. Im working on that right now and hope to have most of the content ready to upload to the now fully working website by the end of next week.

I will rest a bit easier when those files are in place, it was a pain not getting everything up before we left and the minor issues of equipment and content in transit was worrying me but should be able to rest a bit easier when these are up.

And its new year tonight, Jirawan has encourage me to go to an organised event to see the countdown.. it will be fun... :D

Ahthankyew

Shopee :D

My 1st attempt at home delivery, which is a bit daunting since I can't spell or pronounce our address, never mind work out the formtting for what part is the street/project/district/city/provence method they use here.

But I did it, bought a few musical things I had to leave behind, such as my Roland Street Cube ex  amp I used mostly for FBR content. I found an equivilent on Shopee for less than half the price, and also some wireless guitar and in ear stuff... I gave Martin my back up units, and needed similar here to use my Spark 2 Amp which I was able to bring.

Im dead chuffed at how easy this was, quality  of the new amp is ok, its not in the same league as the truly awesome Roland but for me, alone at home practicing and making some recordings its totally fine and a lot cheaper. If I ever do get to perform in public again then this will also work for me... 

Ahthankyew

Jet lag fun

After 3 nights of waking up at 4am  and dozing on the couch for how everlong mid day... I slept from 2am to 2pm today, a good long sleep, with a minor trip to the loo at whatever o'clock

Feels like the jetlag has started to fade out, well we will see. We are both still mad busy settling in, shopping, setting things up etc... there's a lot to do... and its draining in different ways, especially with the freezing 25deg temps (amzing to see Thais complain its cold).

Hopefully just a few more days to find our rhythm and get into nice routines.

We did have a bit of an explore yesterday though and found another easy reach market, small shopping area we can have a good look around at soon. We know all about the big stores, but budget wise its important to find the local places so we will enjoy exploring those.

Ahthankyew

Home

 We are now, home, in Chiang Mai.... seems a bit anticlimatic,  but we have arrived, we (Jirawan, Im banned) have started to unpack and we're thinking about things to do in the coming days.

All a bit strange, and exciting. The damaged hand is getting a bit better, the tennis elbow still thinks I am playing tennis and so far the mozzies, are leaving me alone... so far.

Jet lag however is kicking in, neither of us can sleep more than a few hours,  But we will get over that in a few days.,

Can't wait for dawn to see how things are in the daylight, our1st Christmas in our new home in 25+ degrees C

Will need to do a bit more shopping soon for food and bits of extra furiture, but the next few days will be turning our holiday home, into our for the year home. And the hunt for that forever home starts in the new year.,

Merry Christmas...



Ahthankyew

Handsome young sexy scotsman brutally assaulted by slippy shower, hours before leaving Netherlands!

I slipped in the shower......... yup, fell like a sack of spuds just stepping on the hotel bathroom floor as I had given myself a good scrubbing.

Boom down I went, clattering my hand on something as I went down.. Apart from the shock I am largely unscathed, but my left hand is bruising up a bit and two fingers are starting to stiffern and swell. Had to switch my wedding ring to my other hand as it started to get a bit tight.

Stoopid thing to happen the day before I leave the country, we've got 100Kg of luggage to haul around and with tennis elbow on my right arm and an injured paw on my left... its going to be fun.

ah well,.... not quite dead yet.Counting down the hours till we head off.

Ahthankyew

There were tears, and frustrations and mistakes aplenty

We finally left the house, 3 hours or so late, and with a few last minute things to throw away, but.. we got out... and now we are in a holding pattern at an Ibis hotel near Schipol waiting to fly out on Dec 23rd to finally arrive at our new home

It didn't all go to plan, of course not, that would be silly and the last few hours of van rental were a mad rush to get to the dump and clear the decks of stuff I've hoarded for 20-25 years... but its gone... its done..we are reduced to  2 large holdalls, 2 medium cases and 2 carry ones for our trip.. though 3m3 of stuff also went 10 days ago.. Did we dump some wrong things, for sure... but everything is ultimately replaceable so, we have to let it go....the cold never really bothered me anyway.

It was hectic, it was stressful and most importantly it was painfully heartbreakingly sad, as I said goodbye to some wonderful friends and collegues and students, most of whom I will never see again, despite the effect of social media. Their presence brightend my life and their absence will be felt so deeply.

But... it has to be done, we have to move forward, make a new home, make new friends, but leave the door very wide open to the old ones who want to come visit and be welcomed to  our new life.

The next few days are likely to be a bit boring, Jirawan has done an amazing job of repacking our 7 or 8 bags into  the required 6 (I helped buying huge canvas holdalls) and now we can take them to the airport in 3 days and head off reasonabley safe and secure.

Breda, was wonderful, I can't say enough what a wonderful place t was,  aside from relatonships causing  pain, my time in Breda was nothing short of amazing. And.... it has provided me with the means to make this new chapter possible. The house sale went through smoothly, and we got a little more than we budgeted for to make the new life possible. 

We arrive in Chiang Mai, on Christmas eve, and our new life together starts then... its exciting, its scary, and ts also truely wonderful to have the chance to see out my days no longer stressing about commitments to others in order to finance our lifestyle... we get to do what we want, when we want, how we want..

awesome.

Ahthankyew

and thats it.

Though technically I still have 2 work from home days before the holidays, today was my last official in office work day, and basically my last day working... I cleared off my desk, reset and formated my company provided laptop and ended my time at BUas.... There was a lovely little gathering of staff, a short but heartfelt speech from my friend and respected collegue Jacco and then a short soppy speech from me.. oh and whiskey..another botle to take to Thailand/ 

Followed by tears, hugs and handshakes...and warm feelings all round... it was a bit of a choaker...

Its all over now... apart from a very slight dangling thread of 2 days work from home which isn't really needed as students are winding down.. Im done.

I will hand in my company credit card, access card and laptop tomorrow, just before my final performance with Starrcase where I will attempt to play my best ever final gig...at the end of year party.

It was also my Birthday, and saying goodbye was sad, its not often my Birthdays are sad... but yeah... this was tough.

Oh and to top off the day I forgot to book parking for the rental van we are using to transport our crap to the local recycle depot.... expect an unpleasent parking fine in a few days...even though i won't be here. There goes my COA bonus....tempting as it is to not pay it, I better, to be safe.

We have a final inspection of the house by the agent on Friday morning followed by a trip to the Notaris in the afternoon, then.... we go to Amsterdam for 4 days to chill and get ready for our trip, we'll do a bit of christmas sightseeing, have a few nice meals and then head off on Tuesday.

I'm filled with a mix of emotions, sadness at leaving so many good friends behind, stress at the fact my website isn't fully updated yet to support my book, fear at the new start as well as excitement at that same new life.... and annoyance at the parking fine...grrr its a van, clearly being loaded and working...but that won't stop them....grrr

Never mind, soon, we will be home again, a new home, but home is where Jirawan and I make it, and we edge closer to that home. Christmas is going to be a bit warmer this year.

Ahthankyew

When will I see you again???

3 m3 might sound like a lot. but it kinda isn't. but here we are, 4 guitars, lots of kitchen stuff, books, DVD's musical gear, art and random stuff...on its way to Sunny Thailand... hope it all slips through ok/

Now we move to the throwing out phase of the week... no time for any sentiment, if it can'be sold or given away it goes to the tip.

Ahthankyew

Starting to Panic

When you make a decision a year and a half in the future, its all still very vague and needs research.

When it gets to a year, its a bit more researched.

6 months in you know what you need to do, but there's still plenty of time and everyone is clued up that you're going through with it.

At 3 months you start doing the main paperwork.

At 1 month, you  book and pay for things and start selling off things you now no longer need.

At 2 weeks.. you realise you still have a lot of shit to sell and that shit probably won't sell so you have to give it away or take it to the tipe

Its scary how fast things creep up despite all the notice you give yourself... the house currently is a shambles, scattered with things we want to sell/get rid of. Marktplaats has been good for getting rid of some of the high value items, not always at good prices but they're gone... the smaller more personal stuff is harder to sell, some wlll go to Thailand, (If it can be packed in 4 days) some will go to friends some goes to the tip.

But one thing is certain, in  a little over 2 weeks we're on a plane.... and all this panic will be left behind

Anyone wanna buy a bed?

Ahthankyew

Arrghhh the pain

Tennis elbow, still playing up something horrible, but worse is the heartache of letting my collection of model aircraft go, 20+ years I started collecting with the intention of building them in my retirement.......and now Im retiring I can't really take them with me... sad.

But I put them on line as a job lot, over 240 kits, and some other bits and bobs for 1500euros, and 2 dealers almost bit my hand off chasing it. Both were ok with the price (well they would be, they are getting close to 8K work of retail return) but only 1 was willing to come and collect so I sold it..even though the other offered me a few hundred more and would easily have offered still more I think, I made a deal and stuck with it. 1500 in the bank now, compared to maybe 6 -8 spread over 2 years.. not an option Im afraid.

True to his word the dealer popped over today in a rented van (so yes...he's aware of the value) and they are all gone, 20 big shipping boxes worth. sigh

Sad.... but Í think I am ok with this, its not like the guitars, I still play guitar so losing them was a gut punch, but my model building ended many years ago, and while I am sure I will pick it up again in Thailand as a way to fill my time.. Its not killing me as much as letting the guitars go did.... so maybe heartache isn't quite the right word, sadness for sure though, more endings.

Ahthankyew