so much Brexit shit

As someone living in Europe, benefiting from the many benefits of the UK's membership of the EU, I can't help but look at the UK with my mouth gaping open at the absurdity of it all.

Its not just the harm it will do me personally, and many of those I care about,  its the absolute utter total levels of misinformation, misunderstanding and lies that are spouted, not just by everyday people but by people who really are educated well enough to know that they are spouting actual, provable easy to verify lies.

For 3 years now this madness has been getting worse and worse and worse, as the UK lathers itself into a frenzy just before it pulls the trigger to shoot itself without ever really understanding why its doing it, only that it needs to do it...because.

The EU is not evil, the EU is not trying to take away anyones freedom (quite the opposite in fact), the EU is not bleeding us dry (quite the opposite again), the EU is.....oh man I could list pages and pages...but it won't make any difference, not a jot.

Becuase people just stopped listening..they've entrench themselves and treat anything that might change thier view as something to be resisted...even if the only resisitance they have is the afore mentioned lies, or nanananana..not listening!!! neh.


I've been getting triggerd very badly on this on FB and other social media..trying to repond, politely as far as I can, to give genuine responses, and let the facts shine, but nope, 2 mins later, its the same lie spread and repeated...and ultimatly given form as a new truth. The stress levels that gives me are off the scale and I need to let go. I have to take a leaf from some of my British friends here, we're out of it...its not our problem..

I'm done with it....totally, the UK can go shoot itself in the head and spend the next 50 years in a financial and political wilderness, its become an absolute farce.

I'm currently broke, but as soon as my finances recover in the summer, I'm triggering my own article 50 and starting the process to become a dutch citizen. I just can't feel any reason to stay British as long as this madness continues.

Ahthankyew

New Plan..

ok, so new plan time, love life is a shambles, and I have to be realistic about my ability to generate income for the remainder of my working life, which is realistically only 10 years.....shit I'm old.

Once the financial fallout from my current cock ups are resolved toward the end of the year, I will be  doing my best to increase my pension funds and make efforts to plan my retirement in sunny climes

I'm thinking Thailand.. I know I've only been there once, but I loved it, and a bit of research shows  I can live there very well on a reduced pension (I can't really qualify for a full Dutch pension) and the proceeds of selling my house in 5-10 years will let me buy a really nice home there.

My house in Belcrum was bought for more than it was worth, (part of my buying out Bina at the time) but it has finally gone well into profit and with the rising prices in this area is shooting up so I can indeed get a nice wedge if I hang on to it long enough, of course the bubble might burst but I doubt I'll lose any monrey now.
If I can make 100-200K on the house in 5-10 years. I can easily buy a nice retirement home outright in pretty much any area of Thailand, though I will avoid Bangkok, and maybe Phuket, though I really liked my trip there, its just a bit too.....shall we say touristy. though I do need to be fairly close to a touristy location to ensure some english speakers are around.

I'll make some effort to visit a few more times and settle on a place,  it turns out I have a few contacts who have retired there and can advise me on settling there. I did some searches on line to see what that kind of money can buy and indeed there's lots of options. Of course prices there will also rise, but I can adjust the expectations at the time. As long as I can find a nice home, bought and paid for, no obligations and a regular amount of money coming in I can live out my days, hopefully not stressing out about computer projects..... part of my plan is also to give up computers when I retire and focus on music and self education...no more obligations to other people.

So no more guitars...:( (well I don't really need any more do I), all spare cash goes into the pension or into reducing the mortgage to maximise the sale value

Of course like all plans its subject to change, is Mrs Right pops up, or I win the lottery, or whatever. But I think its important now for me to start planning for my retirement, I won't really be able to survive here in NL when I stop working without a full pension. Its a lovely place to live for sure and I'd live to retire here, but the finances already don't make sense. And no way am I going to head back to the UK to have Danni picking out a retirment home that smells less pissy than another...I want somewhere warm and with options that will let me do fuck all until I drop dead.

I saw some nice homes with plots of land that would be perfet to chill out and relax in for 20-30 years for 100K. 200K would get me even more :D

5-10 years though, not much time at all is it, where did all the previous years go? So much for retiring at 30, then 40...sneaks up on you.





Ahthankyew

Annnnnnd single again.

I think I should fit a revolving door on my heart, or cut the strings or something...fuckit
The anticipated romantic trip for two just wasn't..no talking, no sharing, no romance, no sense of joy or discovery, no silly giggles, no wow moments, no sense of belonging, nothing...thats when you just have to stop farting into the wind and stop. I've made too many mistakes recently to let a deep fear of being alone trap me into an empty and doomed relationship.

There has to be someone out there...somewhere...who actually wants me for me? I will make a bit of an effort, clean up a bit, be attentive and all that, I'm getting quite good at that now...just want to be noticed and loved for who I am...

Thought that was the easy bit.

ho hum.... more rum Brian...
I don't mind if I do Brian thanks.
It tends to make you talk to yourself.
Oh thats ok I've got no other fucker to talk to.


Ahthankyew

Brian the pop star

I'm so incredibly excited at the way our acoustic trio, Famous Belcrum Recordings is taking off.  Gigs are rolling in and we're starting to build a serious following.

Considering my other band's never really managed to get many gigs, this incredible degree of interest, which so far has 7 or 8 confirmed gigs in the next couple of months with more on the horizon. Its making me giddy with fear, pride and excitement.
There's a couple of them are big gigs too, so hopefully that in turn will lead to even more gigs, and hopefully some attention for the summer festival circuits.

Can't post the dates just yet, a couple are still in negotiation but its all amazing. Just amazing.



Ahthankyew

Grandad again :)

Ah bouncing new baby granddaughter.

she didn't let me know she'd gone into labour this time, I was so stressed and worried last time she waited till after...grrr.

But yeah, happy happy happy

Ahthankyew