Sunday, 29 January 2017

The cushion didn't work out

despite being a fat bugger, there's not a lot of padding on my butt cheeks (I still have a cute tuche), and the cushion went a bit hard after an I went to Makro to take advantage of ther 25% discount weekend.,

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its butt is comfy again... now what else can I do to avoid work?


Feeling better take 2

Ok, trying again, the little relapse only lasted 48hrs, and have been safe and warm at home, finally making a start on catching up on all the lost work.

My only issue now seems to be absurd sleeping habits, like tonight, after about 4 hours of coding,  I went to have a little lie down at 8pm as I was feeling tried, and figured a 30 mins snooze would not hurt.

I keep forgetting that snoozing when you live alone with no one to give you a nudge in 30 mins isn't a great idea.

So 4am, I am awake and wondering what to do with the early morning.

Work of course..But at least I am starting to get back into a flow, very slowly, but a few pages added to the book, and a 3D project starting to make sense.

Only one thing is bothering me...I really am starting to dislike my office chair, its one of those mesh chairs, solid enough but for the time I spend sitting in it, it does not feel nice..I don't get the sense that its making me want to sit for 8+ hours.

I was in Makro today and tried out a really awesome leather (maybe fake) chair...but at 150 ex vat, its a lot of cash.......

am I just making excuses? or will a couple of cushions solve the problem...time to get a couple of cushions and see...

....time passes

hmm cushion works quite well, think I just needed by bum raised a couple of inches higher than the chair could do.


Thursday, 26 January 2017

I spoke too soon

3 glorious days with no coughing fits, ended with a coughing fit, and another and another and...

fuckkkk me.,...

working from home today, staying as warm and cosy as possible, dog walks not withstanding and hoping its just a small relapse.

seriously fed up now.


Wednesday, 25 January 2017

I think its over..

3 days with no major cough fits, and I am starting to regain some energy...I think it over, the odd cleansing cough aside...

That... was....fucking....terrible

A month, a whole month and a few days,  lost to being ill, is it age that causes that? I eat and live quite healthy, a little overweight sure, but ...a month to get over a flu and chest infection!!.

horrible, horrible time, and its cost me so much work, I did almost nothing on the book, as my brain didn't connect to my fingers, missed several rehearsals with both bands, in fact...this will tell you how bad it was, I barely even touched a guitar....something I normally do every day, but there were days when I just had no desire.

I've lost so much momentum on the book, but other things have to come into focus now, I got behind on student feedback, and on some of my smaller projects. Also there's no food in the house, aside from a couple of weeks of freezer lottery, I haven't had a major shopping spree for provisons and tinned/dry goods, has to be done soon.

Time to try to get into the zone again...if I can. Start small, do little things to completion and gather up a head of steam\

Watch out world, I'm coming back.......maybe


Sunday, 22 January 2017

is it over?

I had THE worst fit of coughing ever yesterday for about 20 mins laying down on the couch, it was horrible, but since then it seems to have died down at last...not totally gone, still the odd little clearing cough, but...I think...maybe...another day and it will be gone.

fingers crossed


Friday, 20 January 2017

oh c'mon

yup, still sick, still no mojo, still not able to get any real work done.

Going to try to do some codeing this weekend, don't care what, just got to push things throw and get some momentum going, I have a 3D Pi project to write to test that it can be doen for students, it also forms an important chapter in the book so if I can get that done a lot of the last pieces of the book will fall into place.

if...if I can stop coughing all day and collapsing with exhaustion at silly o'clock.


Saturday, 14 January 2017

Missing the mojo

Even though I am finally on the mend, though still being plagued by coughing fits when I get a bit tired, I am not in a good mental place. Cloudy thinking and a total lack of motivation to work are just not pushing me forward at all.
I've still got shit loads to do with the book, some serious coding to get done and no matter how long I  sit at my screens I just have nothing coming from the brain to the fingers.

I need to find a way to push through this barrier, its really quite serious, I've had blocks like this in the past but never really for this long. I need to just get something done to clear the block, lol its like mental constipation, once I get the block shifted I hope the rest will come through a bit easier :D


Friday, 6 January 2017

still sick

I know, I should have gone to the doctors, but frankly getting out of bed  has been a massive effort most days, never mind calling before 9 so I've jsut been resting and chilling as much as possible,  dog walks in the cold not being too helpful.

I am improving, very slowly, the odd coughing fit aside I am aware of a a slight improvment every day, but wow am I this rate my Monday I will be almost fit...jsut in time to start work



Sunday, 1 January 2017

ok 2017, lets see if you can do a bit better

Here we go, another new start, 2016 was a horrible horrible year,so many deaths of childhood heroes.

And on a personal level so many mistakes and cock ups, but also good things, the book is almost done...(please be this month, please be this month)

I think this was the 1st time ever I went to bed sober...totally 100% sober.. Not sure I've done that since I  was 12. The tail end of a chest infecgtion from the Christmas flu,  and a poorly judged drinking session with Dutch Giant Jelmer who matched me drink for drink a few days after christmas, have put me right off booze for now.

But despite an early drink free night, I slept terribly, the fireworks went on till well after 3am, and poor Harvey was very stressed out by every single boom and bang.
Finall I dropped off, only to wake up at 6 and then 9-30 back to bed.

but I got up at 2, feeling a bit rough, and the cough confirms the infection is still there...I'll give it a couple more days then go see the doc again. He'll be happy to see me I'm sure.